Pain meds vs Alcohol

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Hello everyone,
I am prescribed 90 40mg oxys and 270 5mg roxicodones a month for
neuropathy. IT's been this way for a year. I've just about had
enough of these meds as I know they are killing me. I used to
drink alot of beer every day but since I've been on the meds I
have not drank as much as an ounce of beer. If I quit the meds
(I've got all the stuff from Thomas's recipe) I know I'll go
back to drinking. I'am torn up on which way to go. I quit smoking
14 months ago cold turkey so I do believe I can quit the meds,
although it will be tough with this habbit and the length I've
been on the meds. Does anyone have an idea which way I should go?
Also I too have been banned from the other web site. I did'nt do
anything wrong.
                       Thanks Tom

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To All,
Now that I have a bit more time to expand on what J.B. said.
He's right. I need a spring board. This peripheral neuropathy
is killing me. My feet feel like their going to explode. This
is one bad ass diease. I've tried everything. Neurontin,topamax,
tegatol,something that starts with a z and even a killer hot
pepper cream called Capzasin.HP. Stay away from that one. The
only thing that seems to work is the pain meds. But I know this can not go on forever. Thats where you people come in. Support,
Support,Support. I need your support. I don't know what to do I
can't live like this too much longer. Thanks for listening to
my complaints. I'll be away for a few days so I'll check back
later. Thanks again.
Tom

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J.B.
   That was perfect, Thanks. I'll try to hang in there. My
PN could have been caused by the Alchol. I was told that.
Tom

[Ketta]

unisom and valerian root. they're both over the counter. I use them every night. slight sleep hang over, but at least I fall asleep for for a coupla hours. I've never been a good sleeper and too scared to go to the doc. for fear I'll get a beating or arrested :)

[Dawnslight]

Hi all...
You wonderful people mentioned above, have NO IDEA what your responses to my earlier post meant to me!  I'm crying all over my keyboard, but this time w/happy tears that in such a short time, I feel as if I've made new friends/family that only the few of us can relate too.  Thus, we share a most excellent bond.

I will contact each of you that left your email address.  Mine is ***@****

I took a Klonopin after speaking to my daughter about 4:30.  It knocked me out till 8 tonight.  That's great for the jitters and such during the day, but now...I bet I'll be up w/my 4 cats till the sun rises again tonight.  Lucky me!

If the cold sweats would just go away, I actually might feel somewhat human.  I have absolutely no desire to do anything but watch daytime TV.  What a waste!  But I know it's for a great cause.  At least I have cable.  lol.  

"J.B"...I'll take the longest shower of my life tomorrow, put on bright light comfy clothes, curl my hair, put on purfume and listen to all kinds of music...very loud to pass the time.  Maybe I'll do the laundry.  I think lying around is adding to the pain and such by virtue of total boredom.  Thanks for the advice!

This is shear torture.  I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.  It's your stories of hope like "bronzeback" off for 20 days that are keeping me going.  I wish we could all meet one day and share our experiences as sober productive people.

"Stars"...thank you for reminding me that I'm a good mom.  That's my most sensitive area w/all of this.  I pray my beautiful daughter never "uses"  just cause mom did.

Tomorrow (Thurs) will be the beginning of day 4 off the lortab, and beginning of day 3 for the oxy. I pray, it will soooo much easier than the last few days.  I'll keep you all in prays as well.  Please keep in touch w/me.  I came VERY close to taking my oxys this afternoon.  Thank God for you, my daughter and the fact I fell asleep today.  Write anytime!

Hugs and prays...:)
Dawnslight

[radioboy74]

Can anyone suggest something for sleep besides Ambien and trazadone?  I have been up for 3 days now and can't get any sleep.

[stars]

ketta, i have been your posts for sometime now.  how many times have you also touched my soul?  many!  forgive all of you if i dont mention you individually... kip, i include you towards my recovery..  this forum is honest and raw... what can be better? we admit our failures and our strenghts, they go hand in hand.  not ONE OF US comes across as being better than the other, we just grasp at other peoples strenght and hopes..  we are all one in a union of despair who wants desperatly to be free from what weighs us down...  for those of us who let go and continue to struggle, but yet are learning to fly, we come back to the place that helped us spread our wings...  its kinda crazy that i have zero cravings, but yet i crave this forum and people in it..  ketta, you talk about "having balls"....  it was harder to admit to myself that i was messed up...  but i thank you for mentioning "balls" while my hormones are outta control...  wonder if i'll get addicted to sex now?  lol!  thank you dear one for your time and kindness of words...  

dawnslight....  just don't stop, and try not to look back right now...  go full speed ahead....  i can tell you this much...  being the "young" mother of four beautiful children, i share your passion in our gift of being mothers...  but you know what?  when the hard part is over.... your gonna wake one day and you'll be blown away at every aspect of your daughter and her beauty because we have been clouded for so long...  i promise you, you will see her in a different light...  i am struggling sending them to school everyday because i feel like i have missed so much of them the last few years...  keep it up dawnslight....  feel free to contact me personally anytime at ***@****....  my address is open to anyone...

remember.....  don't look back and embrace each minute..

love, peace and blessings.....  stars.....