Pain meds vs Alcohol

[Hinkster]

Hello everyone,
I am prescribed 90 40mg oxys and 270 5mg roxicodones a month for
neuropathy. IT's been this way for a year. I've just about had
enough of these meds as I know they are killing me. I used to
drink alot of beer every day but since I've been on the meds I
have not drank as much as an ounce of beer. If I quit the meds
(I've got all the stuff from Thomas's recipe) I know I'll go
back to drinking. I'am torn up on which way to go. I quit smoking
14 months ago cold turkey so I do believe I can quit the meds,
although it will be tough with this habbit and the length I've
been on the meds. Does anyone have an idea which way I should go?
Also I too have been banned from the other web site. I did'nt do
anything wrong.
                       Thanks Tom

[The Golden Slipper]

hello out there,

Here we go again....I call myself the "Golden Slipper" because I am a prescription drug addict who abuses a drug called "fiorinal"  It is a common drug used for migraine/tension headaches.  I have been in recovery several times over the years and have managed to put together 2 whole years at one time.

However...hence my name "Golden Slipper" I keep having slips.  I like the way I feel when I take this drug.  I have no desire to take anything stronger (Oxycodone etc.,) but that's beside the point.  I need to get off of these pills and back into recovery.  Addiction is so irrational and I always considered myself a rational person with regard to other matters.  This thing just throws me for a loop.  I have absolutely no control over it once it takes over.

I keep getting prescriptions and running out and getting more prescriptions.  Sometimes I am amazed at how easily I can get the prescriptions.  I am now taking about 6 fiorinal a day and want to try to taper myself off.  (Easier said than done!!)

I am married (5 years) and my husband is very aware of my addiction.  Although he does not know about my latest slip.  As usual I feel extremely guilty.  We are hoping to adopt a child and right now I don't feel I would make a very good parent.

I feel for everyone out there and can admit that I am "An addict" however, I need to come clean.  It is so difficult!!  I would love to hear back from anybody out there.  Is there anyone who has been hooked on fiorinal.

I'm sure I can't be the only one.

[OxyDout]

Is Fiorinol the little pill with 3 heads on it?????? you know, the outlined profile on the pill..........

[Ketta]

Fiorinal is also fiorocet, and yeah, has the heads on it.

Golden Slipper, are you doctor hopping? I ask because it's illegal as you may have read. I was doc. hopping and got caught. I didn't have any prosecution, but others have. I was simply embarassed and now been "flagged"/?  I tell you this because it can inhibit your adoption efforts. You may have read I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer- long story, but adoption is something we're considering as well. I've been clean for 15 days, I like hydro and tend to get carried away. I've taken fiorinal but never took it up "professionally".. a little humor. Addiction is the same if it's controlled and addictive so don't worry too much in the difference of pill. We're all here to help. This could be considered a substance abuse problem officially by the background check for adoption. How far along are you in the adoption. We can help with detox, and support, etc. but if you've got a chance to adopt use that as serious motivation. I'd be happy to chat with you in email. Mine is listed on another thread, you can give me yours in a post if you prefer. Ketta.

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

The way I understood it, Hinkster wanted to know which way to go.  It sounded like if he went off of opiates, he would go back to alcohol.  Well flip a coin Hinkster.  If you really need pain meds for neuropathy it's a different story.  I, too, am in pain management for PN and a few things related to hep C and arthritis.  I went the full spectrum with narcotic meds in about three year's time, myself.  Lortab to MS Contin.  

Or you can drink alcohol if your body will let you. Even with severe liver problems, I could probably drink anyone here under the table and not even suffer a hangover! We drunks like to brag a little, don't we?  Anyways, I'm told that my PN has been caused by excessive alcohol use and yes it is very painful.

I think that in your heart of hearts, you know the answer to your question.  You just needed to use us a a sounding board because we give a damn....right?  You are on the right track, my friend.

J.B.

[Dawnslight]

Hi everyone...my earlier thread said I would be on line all week detoxing form lortab & oxy at home cold turkey.  I did find a script of Klonopin I forgot I had and began the Thomas receipe and FYI...

It's been since Sunday w/out lortab (20 a day) and since Monday w/out oxy (3per day).  Yesterday, I was in the restroom all morn.  But the Immodium helped 100%.  I felt some energy w/the L-Tyro, B6 and such, but really haven't gotten off my brand new sofa that's getting ruined from my fanny sagging the cushions.

Last night I thought 1 Ambien would help me sleep.  HA!  I wound up taking 3 and still was awake at 1, 2 & 3am.  At 5am, I walked the house, found the Klonopin, took it and fell asleep till 10am today.  But I'm a total zombie.  And crying at the drop of a hat.

I have a chronic pain issue.  But I want to see where my real pain is, thus stopping all meds.  If it wern't for my damm knees throbbing to the point of visualizing taking a hammer to my caps, I would be doing pretty well, actually.  (Except for lack of sleep).  Originally, I was just going to stop the Lortab.  That's the one I'm getting carried away with.

I almost took my oxys just now, but called my 13 yr old at my moms.  (Kept her away so she wouldn't see me going thru this), and hearing her little voice, gave me the motavation to stay off all meds for at least one more day.  (She too has a back issue & wears a brace, so she understands chronic pain & meds).

I'm wearing three layers of robes, but I'm freezing yet clammy.  My eyes are sunk and have brown circles.  I have to remind myself to eat.  I choke on the Thomas diet pills.  (Must be a mental thing w/pills).  

But, I'm still willing to try, 'cause I'm beginning to feel/see the light at the end of this tunnel of hell.  I actually have moments of feeling free and being proud of myself.  But then again, I start crying for being here in the first place, and wasting a beautiful Texas sunny day in my living room.  Not to mention, I'm not at work, so I'm loosing money.

If no one is interested in how my home detox is going...please don't hesitate to tell me.  You're just the only group I can talk too without loosing all emotions and worrying my family if I called and spoke to them in tears.

My prayers are with you all...please keep a prayer for me too!

Hugs to all...:)

[Ketta]

What's your email address? I'd be happy to correspond with you. What you're doing is amazing, and you're not alone. Ketta.