Just wanted to let everyine know that I finally got up the courage to attend a NA meeting, and dont ask me why? But I was scared to death about walking into that church, I must have drove past it 4 times prior to entering, & almost didnt go in, but I kept saying to myself, get your butt out of this car & get in their! I have done so many things in my life that have taken courage & guts, I,ve done some public speaking, I used to be in dance competions, being up on a stage was like second nature to me, but this was so different, & I cant explain why? I was shaking & a nervous wreck, I had palputations, etc, but once I actually did it & sat down, I calmed down. I did get a chance to speak, & as I was speaking out loud, it felt so sureal, the group of people were not what I expected, they were so welcoming & humble. I may not feel much better physically, but mentally knowing that I now have a place to go where I wont be judged or looked down upon for my addiction is the ultimate reward, I feel a little more strength just knowing that I have somewhere to go & people who understand this first hand disease of addiction. Thanks Penelope