Aa
Please any advice?
I am a 46 year old father of 3. I have been battling a year+ long oxy habit. I hurt my back in 2002 and was prescribed Lorcet plus. This became more of a habit than pain relief and the use began to escalate. After moving to Utah I began buying privately. This habit has been on again off again but a year and a few months solid. Amazingly I have been able to keep it somewhat moderate anyway. I was up to a 40 a day. I AM DONE with this garbage. I have wasted time and untold amount of $$ and I am so sick and tired this thing. It controls every aspect of my life. I have been so scared of the WDs for months but now I am more frightened of continuing. I have been laid off since the fall but my father left my brother and I some money. It has been a curse that has kept me from waking up and realizing something needs to be done now. While my brother has put his in investments and has probably $200,000 or so in the bank I have virtually nothing left. And rent is due and bills are due and this guy is calling me...and I don't want anything. I just want my life back. I used to have a pretty good life. I quit once at 25 and then again a few months later at 30ish. I do not know if I should taper at this amount or just say to h**l with it and bite the bullet. I have a few things to help but I don't know if it's ok to mention them. I am ready and since my friend (we'll call him that even though he is no friend) is the only person I know with stuff, I hope I can keep my head pulled out. So any help, advice, criticism (please feel free to call me a dumba**) would be greatly appreciated. Also If you all don't mind if I hang out here while I'm getting thru this...that would be great.
Many thanks,
Jimi
Many thanks,
Jimi
You'll be alright Jimi!!! : D
Seriously, I took clonidine, and it helps SO, SO, SO much. It's the closest you will come to taking the WDs away. And it isn't habit forming, so that's a plus for us! I could have never made it thru WDs without it, so you are fortunate to have it.
Hang in there! You're gonna make it thru this! (did I say all that right?) : )
Hugs!
Seriously, I took clonidine, and it helps SO, SO, SO much. It's the closest you will come to taking the WDs away. And it isn't habit forming, so that's a plus for us! I could have never made it thru WDs without it, so you are fortunate to have it.
Hang in there! You're gonna make it thru this! (did I say all that right?) : )
Hugs!
ok I'm finally in the **** here. Please free anyone to tell me"you'll be alright Jimi" or "your gonna make it through this". Went to the Dr. Got my BP done. He gave me Clonadine and said I would live but I'm an idiot. I said "tell me something I don't already know". Couldn't find any Hylands Restful leg stuff. I guss Walmart might have it but I don't go to Walmart. Got lot's of potassium foods though. So...hurray, I am so looking forward to this!
I see more people jumping in the pool and I'm still just stickin my toe in. Well maybe I've got a leg in now. Thanks for the encouragement I will get this done.
Viki - Actually might stay at the ex's she has a huge whirlpool tub. I can handle the chicken and dogs and cats and all. my daughters will help. LOL I broke down and told my oldest at her birthday dinner tonite. She said "I already knew, you were acting like Andy". That's her ex fiance who was a user. She took it well and I'm glad thats over.
Gnarly - Thanks again, yes zero hr is approaching but since I have switched to the hydro and cut down so far I am already in it halfway I think. I was really shocked that I was able to keep from asking my friend for anything today. When I say him on my step my 1st thought was "Oh crap". That was a big test for me.At least I feel now like I am really committed and not gonna say "uhh maybe next week" again.
ok I'm gonna settle down with a good book
L8er
Jimi
Viki - Actually might stay at the ex's she has a huge whirlpool tub. I can handle the chicken and dogs and cats and all. my daughters will help. LOL I broke down and told my oldest at her birthday dinner tonite. She said "I already knew, you were acting like Andy". That's her ex fiance who was a user. She took it well and I'm glad thats over.
Gnarly - Thanks again, yes zero hr is approaching but since I have switched to the hydro and cut down so far I am already in it halfway I think. I was really shocked that I was able to keep from asking my friend for anything today. When I say him on my step my 1st thought was "Oh crap". That was a big test for me.At least I feel now like I am really committed and not gonna say "uhh maybe next week" again.
ok I'm gonna settle down with a good book
L8er
Jimi
Okay...I lied. Lee Ann posts about how wonderful life is now and she means it. I feel great and I don't really post about it...makes me think...probably we should do that:
make a post on the forum for others to read...
And,she was right about taking care of your ex's house. It does sound like a drag even on a good day but it's good to have one thing you HAVE to do everyday. People who do that seem to feel a sense of accomplishment even if it hurts! Ask for some help,maybe your brother? And think about telling him about this...
V.
make a post on the forum for others to read...
And,she was right about taking care of your ex's house. It does sound like a drag even on a good day but it's good to have one thing you HAVE to do everyday. People who do that seem to feel a sense of accomplishment even if it hurts! Ask for some help,maybe your brother? And think about telling him about this...
V.
HI Jimi well your getting down to zero hour here so get ready mentally to do this
Vicki is right about aftercare it shouldn't be thought of as optional ..it is a critical part of long term sobriety...its cool you already know where the meetings are it will help you to go even now just getting started...there is a lot of support there and you will meet some people you can exchange phone # with for one on one support when you really need it
just remember all the pain your going to go thew is worth it in the end...with aftercare you can learn how to live a drug free lifestyle and it so beets what your going thew now
ILL be checking up on you from time to time...hang in there and just know YOU CAN DO THIS we will all be here to walk it out with you ...good luck and God bless....Gnarly
Vicki is right about aftercare it shouldn't be thought of as optional ..it is a critical part of long term sobriety...its cool you already know where the meetings are it will help you to go even now just getting started...there is a lot of support there and you will meet some people you can exchange phone # with for one on one support when you really need it
just remember all the pain your going to go thew is worth it in the end...with aftercare you can learn how to live a drug free lifestyle and it so beets what your going thew now
ILL be checking up on you from time to time...hang in there and just know YOU CAN DO THIS we will all be here to walk it out with you ...good luck and God bless....Gnarly
everything but the partridge! Hell if it was only the dogs n rabbits I could deal w/ it. But those chickens....that's work even for someone not suffering from wd's lol...
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