Please no harsh judgements :/

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Ugh I've been having such a difficult time lately. Just had my wisdom tooth pulled and caved in with the vicodin. I followed the correct way to take it tho and it set me back so far. Why is this so hard. I have such a beautiful family and new daughter who I love more than anything. Why can't I just be normal. I hate my addiction. And I hate myself for being an addict. I will never go back but it's so hard. I have my baby to keep me busy. But thoughts still flow in. All I know is I'd never disappoint her again. I'm so lucky she's so healthy since I had a week relapse while pregnant. I thank god every day that my selfishness didnt harm her. I'll never do that to her again. I'll never usenagain. My mind is just fuxking with me so bad lately. I need to get to a meeting!

gnarly_1 · Answer

I think you got the right idea get to a meeting but more so start to participate you need to find a sponsor and work the steps it there you will find the healing you are looking for I agree with atthebeach this is a marathon not a sprint recovery is a life long process I have been at it for years and still learn new things untill we change the very way we think and reson addiction will run your life weather your using or not so get to a meeting get a sponsor and set yourself free of this b/4 it destroys you good luck and God bless...Gnarly

atthebeach · Answer

Hey lynn.
Hun thank you for posting and reaching out again. How often have you been going to meetings? Have you gone to  any one on one counseling?  Recovery is a marathon not a sprint.you have to continue to work your recovery.you can't get lax.it is important to stay viligant.you can do this. Be strong. Get up and move forward
Hugs and prayers
Debbie

lynnalb15 · Answer

I went to a 90 day rehab a few years ago. I just need to get my mind straight

justsaynotodrugs · Answer

Meetings do help sounds like you may need treatment first 15 to 28 day program you will learn how to clean up from the drug in treatment and you will always have that knowledge to rely on. I went a couple of times and learned alot about addiction I had finally had enough of the drug cycle I was going to try another way to get off drugs and I went to 3 meetings a week. Iam clean and sober today thanks to treatment and aa and na. You can do it hang in there. I highly recommend treatment keep posting.