Please talk to me, give me your wisdom

[BodhiJones]

Well I am on day 2 of going cold turkey from 80-120 mil of Methadone a day, and 60 of oxy. a day. My pain management doctor started me on this 3 years ago for back, neck pain and daily migraines. I just can not live my life as an addict anymore. I went from being in pain to being addicted to drugs. I asked when we started this if I could get addicted and the doctor said, "Just let me know when you want to get off and I'll prescribe something for you." Great advice, not. I was prescribed ambien and Klonopin about ten years ago, I when cold turkey off that about five years later and that was terrible. That was horrendous.
So I'm at day two. I'm not in good shape but i'm making it. I have the creeps, the sweat, I'm in it big time. I'm not going to work for the next three days, I haven't started vomiting, but my skin is crawling. I know that the worst will be over in a few days and that everything will begin to get better. Even though I feel sick, I know that I am no longer a prisoner to these pills, and every tragic thing that comes with making sure you have enough each month. My kids think I have the stomach flu, my husband is helping me. I can not believe some of you are able to pull off working through this. I can do this, I am doing this to save my own life, to prolong my life, to live a better life. We deserve better than this. I will sign on later to give an update if I can. Reading everyone's stories here has given me so much strength. Thank you all for letting me know I am not alone. Bodhi

[lynnalb15]

How r u feelings today???

[lynnalb15]

Your in my prayers!

[gnarly_1]

Well its 1.15AM  AZ time I hope your asleep but better judjment tells me your laying awake shaking the methadone withdrawals are going to start to set in so battomn down the hatches and roll up the sails for the storm thats coming if you cant sleep and you get up please let this encourage you what your doing is difficult but not imposible we have had other members do it
its never pritty but in the end you will be free the first week is hell the first month your sick the second month you wounder if you ever going to get better it is around 90 days that most come out of it dont getme wrong you do get better gradually its just painfully slow this is a rase wone by the tortus not the hare so bere with it stick it out you will get better but with methadone you got to be in it for the long haul if you have any questions leave them here or message me good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[littlebit667]

Hon, I really hope you get past this!  Methadone seems to be a devil drug.

[vicki595]

As you know, Methadone has a very long half life. Right now I'm sure you're feeling the effects of the sudden withdrawal from oxy. The Methadone detox is still to come...thanks for checking in...this is so worrisome.

[BodhiJones]

One thing is for sure, I never want to take any of these pills again. Never. Thank God this is the beginning of the end of this hell.