I am relizing very quickly that I have a problem

[Iwillsurvive10]

I am addicted to my pain reliever which is vics I didn't relize that till this last refill of my prescription and how its gone and I am in pain today I have decided that for my kids sake that I need to nip this in the bug before its too late for me to handle but scared as I have gone a day here and there and cant sleep or feel that I am crawling out of my skin that is some thing I hate the feeling of how long does it take to detox ur self from the drug I can't go into a clinic as I have special needs children and with all that has gone on in the past year they have to be talked to before an event is to happen so I have decided to do this right at home how long am I looking at feeling like poop any answers are greatly helpful

[micheleTX]

how many do you take per day and what strength, etc??

[Iwillsurvive10]

I am suppose to be taking 6 5-325 a day but was finding they were not working so I went and started getting others end it that far, of the 500 ones, and well  make a long story short I am or was now, taking 10 in am in 10 pm and if I had some more would take it again in another 5 hours from then been doing this for the past 3-4 months but gradually went up quickly the last month or so been able to take what I can get my hands on so I go a day or 2 with barely any thing but trying to sleep at night is the mission impossible

[Iwillsurvive10]

I screwed that up, lately been only taken what I can offord but this am at 7 took 10 and at 12 noon will not have any more as the money is gone completely gone and I all ready owe some one 30 bucks out of my next week check I just cant do this any more. Tired of needing that fixed I know I am in the early stages but thats bad enough just wondering how long its going to be and what else I have to look forward to get rid of the W/D since I dont have the money to go and get stuff over the counter to help out with this. I did take my nerve meds, and depression meds, and also took some thing for the muscle pains that will come. I am just trying to keep an open mind I know I can do this, if u knew what type of person I am u would understand just scared of the w/d and what if I get my hands on some thing would it be better to ween my self off or just say h3ll with it and go cold turkey as Is what I am thinking ?

[micheleTX]

ok, that's quite a few, so you are probably going to have some major w/d's when you stop completely, although it should only last 3-4 days of hard w/d's, then it gets easier.  Are you ready to stop completely?  If so, there's a link on the right here that talks about the thomas recipe, that's what I used to come off pills, and lots of water and vitamins.  Let me know how you are doing if you are ready to go cold turkey or not.?  We are here to talk to, just keep posting. I wish you all the good luck in the world.  This is a tough battle, but there's light at the end of that tunnel, trust me, I've been down this road many times!!  Keep smiling too...:)

[Addict63]

You WILL survive. My experience coming off of pretty much the same drug;First  I learned everything I could about the drug, withdrawal symptoms, what to expect so I can expect it, and how to go through withdrawal. The Thomas Recipe will help you. You're going to have a tough week, but knowing about what to expect will make it much easier.

You've absolutely done the right thing; looking for other people who are doing the same thing, and are in varying stages of withdrawal. Stay with us, keep posting. You'll get tons of support here.

Keep on keeping on. If we can do this, you can do this.
-Wish you the best.  

[Iwillsurvive10]

I do want to quit cold turkey, as I don't want to ruin my life, seems I just go from one thing to another I was drinking a lot, thought okay I can live with out it, then and I am dealing with pain, and it ruins my life, so I figure out if I take more then I need I could do more never thought that it would become some thing I needed to get up in the morning and smile for u know. With out the pills I am so grumpy no patience whats so ever just feel like I could squash heads cause no one is listening to me and I did look at the thomas recipe I will have to do with out it as I spent every blasted bit of money till next week so I guess with out that recipe I wont be able to do this or will it be harder to deal with? just need to know what I am about to embark on. I am not just doing this change in life for my self but for my children as well. They dont need to have a happy mom one second cause she took the meds to the next moment cause I am out of them to be just a short fuse they didn't do this I did and I did it all alone I just thought I could handle it I was just so wrong I just grew up in foster care u know and well I was shown the love so I didn't think that the things that run thru out the real family would come thru me. I think I was in a fairy tale and now its time to click my heals and wish for this all to go away and if its going to take 3-4 days of lack of sleep and leg sydrome well I deserve every bit of it,

[Iwillsurvive10]

Thank u for the kind words, just scared that in less then a 1/2 hour I know that I should be taking more and well I have had a few phone calls seeing if I needed any thing I have told them I cant I want to do this I really do. I just wish I had a mate to help me out durring this time, so I think I am going to work really hard on a journal and so if I should ever think I can handle this again I will reread every thing I will have gone thru so that I wont ever want to go thru this again, just reading all the stuff people are going thru is scary but its a scary I need to know and relize that I am not the only one in this world that has these addictions

[Addict63]

Try to remember there is nothing shameful about being addicted to an addicting drug, provided we accept our dilemma honestly and take positive action. This is exactly what you are doing!

[micheleTX]

Addict63 is right, and this is how this particular drug reacts in your brain.  It tells you that you are not taking enough to kill your pain, take more.  And its a vicious cycle.  When you get free of this addiction, your brain will go back to where it was before these took over.  It will take care of the pain, maybe that's not true for everyone, but I have quite a bit of pain from different things (nothing I need to burden anyone with now), and my pain is SOOO much better than it was when I was taking 10-12 lorcet daily.  It will get better!!  Do this for your children, but do it for YOU too!!  You are strong and can conquer this thing.  I know w/d's suck bad, but they will be over too...take care of yourself!  Keep us posted okay.