for those on benzo"s

[crazy_craig]

Hi all, My post is not really a question but a friend suggested I share a little about my benzo (xanax taper)   I was taking HUGE amounts of xans and tried to quit cold turkey...big mistake. I had a grand mal seizure, didnt know my name where I was nothing. Even days after I was hallucinating calling ppl thinking I was back in grade school, all kinds of crazy s++t. So please DO NOT EVER try to stop c/t. anyways, Im stubborn as all get out and never went to ER or even a doc...still havent> I dont recommend this either. Well anyways I tried going from about 30 mls a day down to six mls>>mind you I would take all 30 at one time ANOTHER BIG mistake.I felt like complete s++t and was probably on my way to another seizure when someone (you know who you are,and I luv u 4 it)  told me I was doing it all wrong. If you are trying to get off benzos and are like me and dont want to go to a doctor (which I ABSOLUTELY do not recommend>>>PLEASE..take it slow. As I am learning more about this drug, it can NOT be rushed.Which to me was very overwhelming. But Im glad to say that Ive been doing this slow taper (and I mean SLOW) I havent even noticed that I am even tapering. And it has giving me hope. Just the other day I received some really bad news and when I normally would have dumped a handful of xanies down my neck I stopped, and thought for the first time, and said NO, DONT DO IT! Just because I didnt want to have to start all over screwing up my program. I hope Im making sense to someone because years of taking these pills has really messed me up and I just dont want anyone else to go through what i have gone through. I guess after all that typing, what I really just need to say....Slow is the way to go. And dont get overwhelmed, its do-able and Im living proof that it works if you have patience. ..craig          

[vicki595]

Okay. Glad you're good.  Yes...you could have been that "resuci-Andy" doll!!  Get some sleep!
xo

[crazy_craig]

My post didnt actually end there but got cut off there for some reason>>>And Im too tired to type it again lol>>>talk to you 2mar:}

[crazy_craig]

LOL Hey Vicki. Im doing good. Thank you for asking:) Had to take a couple OSHA classes for work so Im pretty tired....but I just wanted to make sure to check in and say Hi;)  Taper is still going fine> Got a little shook up today doing the cpr course>>>It just got me thinking>>"Christ,this little doll could have been me if I kept going at the rate I was going>>craig

[vicki595]

Craig~~  How are you today?  I'm keeping my eye on you...

[my_mayberry]

as a member of this forum for the past 3 years, i have. do yo uhave something you would wish to discuss?

[hellc@mst]

You know, in 4 years as a member of this forum i have never read a single thread where some oke was shilling benzo detox as a problem free enterprise.

[my_mayberry]

glad you shared this. still, there are those who will absolutely refuse to listen...whats worse is there are others who might feel compelled to say they had a benzo addiction and quit cold turkey without any problems.

[vicki595]

Perfect...and I'm really proud of you!

xo