Recovery

[Jimmystone]

Hello All,  Sorry its been so long since posting. I have been in no mental/physical condition to do much of anything other than breathing.Anyways for those that didnt know I had a daily 300mg Roxy habit. Im trying not to think about it but im around day 10 on a cold turkey detox&it "F'n *****"! 6months ago when I lost everything I had to this habit,my family,possesions,etc,I thought that was the most pain I could ever experience but I was wrong. The past 10days has been a nightmare!!!!!!! The withdrawl symptoms have subsided other than the occasional hot flash,but as far as the cravings go,I am jonesing bad! I want to go score pills now! So please talk to me,I need advice asap. I dont want to throw away the last 10days so please help. I would also like to thank (therealmattj) on this site in front of you all,he has  been a huge part of me making it this far! Thanks to everyone else also.

[Jimmystone]

Thanks gnarly1,I have to be honest,i wasnt even considering aftercare. But your explanation of N.A. is great. I need something free & the human interaction sounds good. I only have a few friends that are clean&I could stand to meet some new people,ya know people that have been where im at,that can steer me in the right direction. I can see why your one of the group leaders. Great answers gnarly1 and thanks again.

[Jimmystone]

Isnt everything you just said the truth. We all have so much in common. As I was growing up I experimented with everything but needle use. You name it I tried it,and some of it I did multiple times. But no matter how much I did I never became an addict. At the same time I was watching my friends get addicted to everything. None of us,including myself could understand how I could just get up and walkaway when the stash of whatever we were useing that paticular night ran out. But I could walkaway everytime. Id hop in my car,drive down to the river and roll a fat crip joint of my beloved marijauna and smoke up while i wad comeing down from whatever I was on that night. The next day as I would run into people, so&so's gold chain would be gone or this guy's stereo would be missing because they had to get more,they couldnt say no. Fastfoward 20yrs and most of my friends are clean men takeing care of there familys&they cant believe me outa all people is going through this. I used to be the guy everyone looked up to & admired.  What I say next is the worst thing about it,for me anyways. Since 2006 I have lost just about everything I owned,I have lost 2 friends I had known for 25years to this same drug of my choice,one overdosed while injecting & the other committed suicide because he was so unhappy and so far gone. But by far the worst of it all for me,it contributed to me losing the most important person in my life, the person I loved more than anyone or anything, my beautiful wife. I would never committ suicide, i just couldnt. I dont want to,bit even more importantly I could not put my family or my mom through that. But I have seen first hand how dangerous that little blue pill is & I can see how it could take even the best person,even the strongest person and put them in that state of mind. Its pretty sad when you can honestly say you would rather be hooked on rock cocaine if you had the choice. Anyways congrats on your days clean,and good luck on the road ahead. Lets keep an eye out for each other. K I T ok. Bye for now.

[hiskidd]

Hey! One moment at a time. Pretty soon, you will double that time and then you will really feel much better. My pain doc just told me I needed to let my body "reset." I hear that a lot on hear, but hearing from the doc really validating it. Your body is resetting or rebooting and it's not fast, but it will be worth it. Hang in there. keep fighting!!!

[gnarly_1]

HI Jimmy the gold stars are for people that are med helps top answers you can read about it on the right side of the page just click on the gold star in the box...the purple stars are for DominoSarah and my self where the community leaders here if you need help finding something or are having problems with the site just ask one of us to help
as for aftercare N/A is great it got a good program it free and you will meet clean people to hang with some people are more comotable with a coslor or addiction therapist  but some one or something groopp of people to help you overcome you addiction the one thing I have noticed over the years is those that get aftercare tend to stay clean those that are opposed to it tend to detox every 3 to 6 mo....you got to decide wich group you want to be in addiction is rarely overcame by ones self you need support this forum will help but its just not enough you need that human interaction....I hope I answered all your questions and again keep posting it will keep your mid off the pills......Gnarly    

[Jimmystone]

Thanks Gnarly.  When u say aftercare do u mean something along the lines of an NA Meeting. Also been meaning to ask som1 this and.u appear to be a prime canidate. Whats up with the stars some of you have by your name?

[Ashirah418]

Hi .. I'm new here. Going through the same ****. I've been on and off methadone, oxycontin, oxycodone since age 12 and am 24 in a couple weeks. My supplier (the last ******* person on the planet that should be) cut me off, never heard a word from here again this last weekend. Don't know why. I've got to hide it from everyone, take care of my daughter (terrible twos, jesus), pets, house, errands like I'm just merely under the weather. Its so hard and I'm scared every minute, time just dragging ***. I am on day 7 of no methadone and day 4 of no oxycodone. This has to be my 6th or 7th time cold turkey. I just wanted to identify with you. I'm in such a sorry state, I would rather crawl than walk, I'd rather just "end it all" but thats too much effort, and I got the toddler to look after. Sweating, shivering, no energy but cant stop moving my godforsaken legs, nooo sleep and not to mention that other undesirable effect on your bloody bowels. You're doing so great, I can only look forward to every day that I'm off everything. The agony ends eventually. For me its taken up to a month to feel human, but usually after 14 days you feel better, not great just better. Cravings .. for me, I've had them even when I was off almost two years shortly before and during pregnancy. Do they really ever stop? For me, no.  Dont do pills though, so you can go through this again and again and totally **** your brain? Be above it if you can. **** I feel an emotional spell coming ...

[gnarly_1]

HI......Welcome back......dude first off you got to get your mind bizzy on something other then thinking about pills ....get lost in some music watch a movie go out to dinner with you lady find some clean friends to hang with an utmost get pluged into aftercare it will help you with stuff like this as addicts we need to change the very way we think and reason....are best thinking got us here ...and an addict can reason themselfs into anything thats why aftercare is critical to getting out of this mess....those 10 days where hard earned protect them
and keep posting whe all want to see you make it good luck and God bless........Gnarly