Relapse

[Twinmomof3]

I had nine months of strong sobriety/clean time and for no apparent reason used vanilla extract in my coffee one morning.  I continued to use it and then moved on to using vodka and now I am depressed and crying and afraid to tell my recovery group about it.  I was so strong about my recovery to drugs and now I've relapsed on alcohol.  I am so ashamed and guilty that I have to start over again that I want to go and chase down the drugs again.  I really don't want to but I am so confused.  What should I do?  Go all the way or just come clean?  I am an idot for doing this to begin with.

[Jammerson1906]

Move forward....You got clean once. YOU CAN DO IT AGAIN! It does not matter how many times you try, what matters is that you NEVER STOP TRYING!! We are only as sick as our secrets!! I relapsed after 6 months....my sick little secret. When I did come clean, to those who truly cared and loved me...they were right back in the saddle with helping me again. No judging, no shame, just love and support.
Dig down deep and find the strength...it is still there, just look for it!
Lots of prayers and strength to you!!!

[freenikita]

I think that for some of us, sobriety happens all at once. one day, we are high or drunk out of our minds, next thing we know, we stop and never touch a glass or a pill or a fix or a... ever again. yet, for the rest of us, the “separation” from drugs is less "clean cut,"

maybe looking at these relapses as part of our recovery process is a better and healthier approach. Instead of self-deprecating each time we "mess up" to the point of being tempted to "go all the way" after all, what the hell...    i'm already a looser type of thought process... maybe… we could acknowledge the "relapse" as part of “our” recovery:” * we could try to see what triggered it if anything, try to learn, try to get a before (the relapse) and an after picture (the relapse). What is done is done, back on your horse and let's try not to fall again!  But if I do, I’ll go back up again right away, until I can ride… so smooth…

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take good care of yourself, and no, it ain’t that simple, like you said... but feasible... absolutely... and so worth it after all...

[Twinmomof3]

I guess it's that's simple

[jojo1911]

you are not an idiot, just come clean