Relapsed:(((( 36 hours in

[hlpplse]

Well I made it to around 56 days last time but the anxiety was so bad that I had to go into an inpatient med setting for help. I was there for 3 days and they gave me an antidepressant which I have been taking and I think helps and clonzapem at night. They gave it 3 x a day but I take it once a night. I figured with still having anxiety what the **** and I started again. I am 36 hours in and so far this withdrawal is not as bad but I do feel the anxiety coming on. I am so sad that I did this to myself I am almost to the point that I want to quit my job and go away to a 30 to 90 day program it is just the money. My husband knows. Please pray for me

[hlpplse]

Made 1 week:)) I still have physical symptoms pain in legs and my tummy this go round is so sore...looking forward to normal bathroom interactions.  I lowered the dose of klonopin last night as I feel I'm over the hump.  Hopefully. I don't feel as foggy...hopefully the physical stuff will be gone in another week. Thank You for all your support

[hlpplse]

I am 10 hours from day 7 and I think my body figured out Im not joking and we are done with opiates. I am a chronic pain patient, but I want to find other ways to deal with the pain and hate having a monkey.  I hope this is the peak and tomorrow is better...I don't even know how I can still have "Reah" or what in Gods names coming out of me anymore...LOL. Im also going to drop that nightly clonzapem dose it makes me feel like **** the whole next day like a fog.

I read your post congratulations on your progress you are doing AWESOME:)

[tooter212]

I know what you mean about being irritable, although in my case its ANGER!!! It doesn't last very long but I have to talk myself down. Like you I have a lot to be thankful for also. Just hang in there it gets less and less. God Bless you

[hlpplse]

Day 6, yesterday was better than today so far  but definitely easier than last time although the RLS has been sneaking up at night and I have been taking my clonzapem which makes me groggy in the morning. I worry about coming off that but I do not want to go back inpatient again for anxiety, I still think Im in withdrawal but hopefully in the next week it will get better. Whoa I am irritable this AM as well. I hope that passes soon I have so much to be Thankful for. I went on to fragrant heart and tried some meditation, I am going to keep that up Thank You for that suggestion. Butch when did your panic attacks go away 60, 90 days? Thanks for your support:)

[butch798]

is the withdrawal almost over.was it easier because you werent on as long.i sure hope so.please talk to your shink about what i said.keep going your al most there.keep eating and drinking.

[hlpplse]

4 hours from day 6:) cant wait for 1 week...:)

[hlpplse]

Thanks for your support, I'm officially on day 5.  I'm going to see my shrink on day 10 to talk about everything. I am dedicated to succeed this time. Thank you again ill keep u updated

[butch798]

the docs told me it was out of you system in 5 days but because i was on for three years it took a lot longer because you were on for a short time maybe your almost done but believe me if you dont find something to replace the addiction and what got you there the anxiety wont go away.try the meditation.try the yoga go to the gym.just keep trying i was working wood with my son i had to change my life to get better i am better now and building houses again.look at my pic i am healthy again.you can get your life back but you have to make some changes only you know what those changes are.love art

[hlpplse]

Well I am 1 and a half hours away from the start of day 5 and the anxiety finally kicked in this afternoon...I was hoping to avoid it since I am on celexa this time. I am hoping that this is the peak and in the next week or so it goes back down. The RSL started last night as well and my tummy has been hurting this time. I know I did this to myself and I cant wait to be free however long it takes. I am committed  have a good night and God Bless

[butch798]

the yoga did it for me or if you cant get into yoga try meditation fragrant heart.com is a website with many different kinds of meditations.it is free.start with headphone on your computor and sit in a comfortable chair  and start with short ones 5 min or 8 min.as you get better at it you can try some of the longer ones.it is sort of like drugs you get hooked on it and it makes you relax but its good  for you.try it please you have nothing to lose and even if you are to stressed out right now as you get better it is a great tool to relax

[hlpplse]

Thank You I'm just trying to get through the worst 6 hours from 48 I can't believe I am here again ill touch base tomorrow looking forward to day 7 and every hour is one less to go through

[digger1976]

The anxiety is a big one for people, everyone is different on times. For me detoxing from subs, it took until about 130 days before I noticed it disappearing, I still get it now and then but nowhere near as bad as it was. You just have to stick with it and believe in the process, it does and will get better! Be patient, ;)

[hlpplse]

Thank You for your concern I am currently on it in the evenings 1 a night I have been on it for 2 months my psych thought it was best especially because I was having a horrible time during my last go round of withdrawals and had to go inpatient because it got so out of control. I have PTSD also which *****. I am hoping after withdrawal and stabilization I can begin tapering down on it.  I'm in celexa this time as well as I was in a dark place during withdrawal.  I want nothing more than to be normal again and know it takes time. Again Thank You for your concern I truly appreciate it

[ricart70]

Taking the klonipin for ten days straight is something I would not do,especially if you are not already on it .Ten days off opiates should at least get you back in working condition .Please be careful with the klonopin You really do not need it

[hlpplse]

Did your anxiety finally go away? And if so when. That was the hardest thing for me

[butch798]

i was really worried about you but  i thought maybe you were busy and  maybe you were ok.its good your are calling out for help everybody here will will help they sure helped me.i am not usually on the boards anymore because i dont want the oxyi anymore i rather have my chronic pain.it doesnt hurt as much as my lost soul in drug addiction.when you get better and you will get better you will know what i am talking about.whatever pain we are in it is not as bad as the pain of losing your soul to the drugs.i didnt eat or sleep for weeks .i lost 30 lbs but i got threw and i am ok no i am great and i know you will be too.dont worry about yesterday just look forward to tomm.its one minute at a time one hour at a time  one day at a time.my favorite saying was i aint going back and  even though you slipped you can say i aint going back.follow the protocol and  keep hydrated and eat even if you dont want to.yoga was my saving grace it helped so much.try it.you can send notes to me anytime .please get better it means a lot to me.i am there for you

[hlpplse]

Thank You both, I am just in the crying phase right now even though I know I did this to myself. I relapsed for 2 months which is a lot shorter than my original time on Percocet and vicodin from my last withdrawal. I am 100 percent committed to doing this...I am taking the week off from the "Flu" and hope by day 10 I will be past the physical and able to control the anxiety with celexa and clonzapem. I know they are addictive but I just cant loose my job yet. I will start weaning of the clonzapem around day 10 hopefully. I am going to look for a 12 step meeting in the area. But if it comes down to it and I need to choose my health over work I will. I cant do this again, Thank You for your support

[weaver71]

If it takes a rehab, you won't regret it. I had to quit my job to get clean. Working on my issues that lead to addiction is a full time job for me. You're blood levels should be lower from your last attempt, so it hopefully it won't be as bad this time. Anxiety was intense for me too, I just kept reminding myself that I wasn't dying. Hang in there and keep close. Are you taking any vitamins, amino acids, or EmergenC? Make sure the water keeps flowing in and out of you. You will do it, it's obvious you really want this.

[Kbusymom]

Praying for you and for all of us.  I'm struggling too.  I wish I could go into treatment but can't because of money and my daughter.  Can you get to a 12 step meeting?  I went to one last night and it helped.