Rock bottom

[LisaM530]

I guess this is where I begin. I don't know how else to do this. Several years ago, I was prescribed vicodin for a toothache. Then another script for another toothache- you get the idea. Eventually I became dependant on them to just get out of bed and make it through the day. Here I am about 5-6 years later, and still taking them. I take what I can get which can on some days be up to 8- (yellow) 1,000's, but on average- about 7- 750's a day. I am way too ashamed to talk about it, and I CANT go to a doctor and just explain this, as I have way too much riding on anyone 'finding out'. The reason I am here today started out simple enough. I simply didn't have any and started (am) experiencing withdrawls. I started reading around online looking for anything related to overcoming  vicodin withrawl, and that's how I found this site. Yesterday, I had NO desire to quit. After reading around, and feeling what I am feeling now, I think I'm ready. This is the first time in all these years I have ever even entertained the thought of quitting. Im maybe even a little enthusiastic- but I'm terrified. Taking vicodin has been the only thing I have known for so long, I don't know if I can do it.
Is there anything I can do to subside the withdrawl symptoms that doesnt involve doctors or 'outing' myself? I want to be normal again. Thank you in advance <3

[LisaM530]

I did buy the tyrosine yesterday but Thomas recipe says not to start until day 4. 2 things: What exactly does it do? I can't find an accurate description anywhere. Also, Can I take it on day 2 if I've already eaten?

[mom_of_two136]

Hi Lisa, I just wanted to send my support and prayers your way. I know what your going through but just remember in a few days the worst will be over with (physically). When I read your post it reminded my of me. I too started my addiction from a trip to the dentist (and my name is Lisa). After a two years, I went CT and felt better after the 5-6 day. After that I started to walk as much as I could. It really does help. Unfornately for me, I hurt my back which started my addiction all over again. Aftercare is so important. Take care of yourself. You can do this. In a few days time, it will get better. Try to stay positive. Well, I just wanted to give you a shout out and let you know you are not alone.
Best Wishes and God Bless
Lisa

[LisaM530]

Thanks Alli. That doesn't sound insane at all because yesterday I got out & went shopping (it was a GORGEOUS day) and I felt SO positive by about 6:00 pm.. and i swear I haven't felt that awake in 6 years, if ever. Maybe that's what I need to do. I just have to find the motivation.. I will try. .. Thanks again.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

I found that the amino L-Tyrosine helped my energy levels signifcantly......

[Allicat0117]

I am sorry to tell you this but unfortunately the lack of energy is what hangs around the longest. It takes a while to come back. However, I know you think this is INSANE but if you start moving you will feel much better! Maybe even just take a short walk around the yard. Sit outside and enjoy the sunshine (if the weather is nice). Get movin!!

[LisaM530]

Thank you, Sandy.
Morning 2 now. I have ZERO energy- I feel like my limbs are like 100 lbs each. I feel groggy, helpless.. like I can't do anything. I started taking 1 a days, the B6, & potassium. Seemed to help yesterday, but I don't feel as optimistic as I did yesterday. I'm NOT going back- I'm sure of that.. but this is just soooo hard. When will this 'lack of interest/motivation' subside? Anyone know?