Roxy/Oxy Relapse

[Kittner33]

Ok, just to start off. I am a 21 year old male in good health and going to school full time with a part time job. Everything was fine until about 8 months ago I was introduced to Roxies.  I had always smoked marijuana, and my "friends" just said it gives you the same high and nothing else. I don't blame them at all because i'm sure if they knew of the dependency and withdrawals, they wouldn't have started either.  Anyways, about 6 months in, I realized I was actually addicted to them.  I decided to just go cold turkey and get it over with.  The first 4 days were pretty rough, but after that it seemed like I was in the clear. I was clean for about 2 1/2 weeks.  After I was feeling good again, I did the dumbest thing ever.  I did the old "well i'm good now so if I just take 1 or 2 today, it won't hurt".  And now it's been almost 2 weeks.  I'm not really mad at myself because I know that relapse is almost like a part of the recovery process and I think it might have actually helped in a way.  I got to see how it was not having to hunt them down everyday and just how much more simple life is without them.  The only reason that I even do them is because of the feeling I get.  It helps me sleep, gives me energy, and just lets me be outgoing.  I'm not using them to hide a traumatic event or help fight depression, I just enjoy the feeling.  But I enjoy not spending every cent on them and making them my life.  That's why when I quit this time, it's for good.  Sorry about the rant but the question that I was getting at is....will the withdrawals be as bad as the first time I went cold turkey?  The first time I quit, I was taking about 120mg of Oxy/Roxy a day.  This time I have probably been taking around 60-90 for the past two weeks.  If I will go through the same exact process, that is fine and hopefully I'll actually learn from this one.  But it'd be tons easier if it was just a little easier you know? Thank all of you in advance for any information given.  I've been reading on this site for about 3 months and it's always helped me out in every way possible.  Thanks again.

[ownfactory]

im a 23 year old male and just like u in pretty good health. i started out just like u guys, started with the percs and tabs, dropped the tabs and took just the percs. a few weeks go by and im eating approx 30 / 10mgs a day! then found the roxys. that was the turning point of my pill addiction. i started off with the roxys eatin about 3-4 a day and in the beginning i was getting so high . after a while the high started to taper off but the consumption started to go up. seemed like i couldnt ever reach the same point as when i started so i kept taking more. basically after 6 months i escalated to taking approx 15 / 30mg roxys a days and let me tell u which most of u already kno buying these particular pills off the street is expensive about 10-15 depending who u kno. well i had a decent job and was living with my best friend and his family stayin in the extra room they had. i was high 24/7 and also learned a lot of things going through this perdicament. i had very very few bills and a steady income with work so all my money went to buying drugs. i tried to slow down but the people i knew that had them and were selling to me, would not stop calling me and asking me if i wanted any cause they knew i always had the money for the most part. and of course the addict that i was never declined any offer unless the price was too high. but to wrap this portion up, i finally moved in with my gf and still she didnt have any clue wat i was doin to myself. i had a partner in crime at work that went in on a lot of deals with me and we looked out for eachother as far as supplying the needs well someone told my gf and she flipped out and we had a long talk and i told her i was done and i was just gonna stop. and again as u all kno that  is basically impossible to do especially takin the quantities i was. so she agreed and we went on with our lives and of course i didnt stop but i did slow down somewhat but not enough. i then slipped up again and she found out once more. i decided that was it i needed to get help. i went to a local detox clinic here where i live and started the suboxone treatment. everythig was goin really well for approx 5 mos i moved out of the town i grew up in where all the drugs were i moved only 30 mins away. but the oppurtunity came up one day approx 1 mon ago and stupidly i took it. i bought a few and told myself that it was cool just a few for the weekend to have a little fun and then be done. i just about full relapsed i got up to approx 10 a day if i had them and started the lieing again. and of course only a month went by and coincidently my gf just out of the blue asked me if i was doin the pills again, but this time i didnt lie and admitted to it and swore to her im gonna get back on the subs and quit the dumb ****. it had been really hard emotionally with all this, and the roxys made me feel so good not necessarily high anymore but made me feel normal, so i could function during the day. And here i am today. today was my first day in about a month since iv taken any suboxone and im hurting today. its really amazing whats going on in the town i grew up in and the changes its gone through. EVERYONE either smokes the herb or has a pill addiction its crazy. supposedly my mom says it hereditary cause my mother had addiction problems when she was younger and still to this day. and my dad, i really never knew ( just met last year fior the first time) he is bad he grew up like that and never changed. its sad. but i could care less about that guy. i saw this post and it just made me think about the stuff iv been through and trust me i think about it almost every day and it brings tears to my eyes when i drive home from work. i really hope this time this is it and im stronger this time to really get through it and be done with it. the biggest influence on my life to get clean is my gf she has been there for me through it all i love that girl with every bit of my heart and even though a lot of this started when we were broken up for a short period she is the one that pulled me through and is still by my side no matter what. having someone that loves u and cares for u by ur side is the best thing for u. good luck to anyone out there with the same situation. get help look into the suboxone treatment it works i swear it does but like kittner/bob said in the above posting that relapsing is part of most peoples process to get clean and i believe it too. good luck - brandon

[abritt121222]

The first time u went ct did u take any vitamins or supplaments or anything?

[jt808]

well its hard to say if theyll be worse same or easier cuz really ive quite so many dam x's tht every single time is different literally not one time i ever quite was same as the last so it really depends on u an ur bady an how it reacts eaither way uve done it before an should get bak there again an learn from ur mistakes unlike me im 26 yr old male been on heavy doses of pills for around 9 yrs i use to take 60 10/325 norcos a day every day for long time than switched to sniffn an smokn oxies about 300mgs a day so belive me whn i forst started out i would only do a few it gets worse an worse an worse so rite now ur at a decent amount an belive me if u doo not get thiosunder control its gona keep getn worse. and like u i took em just cuz the way they make me feel i wasnt hiding chilhood experience or a death nothn like tht i just really enjoyed the feeling as well BUT after so many yrs they have TOTALLY changed me an my brain an thinking its bad now i kno i have depression from em an now i take em to hide the bad thuings ive done to my ex an family an so many friends so now i went from takn em jus cuz i liked feeling to totally changing an no doing it to not get sick an it has caused depression an so many more problems tht u would imagibne so plz stop while ur somewhat ahaed an realize how bad it is an can get. good luck bud

[jstntime]

Welcome,

I think your wd might be slightly less due to the dosage being a little lower but your 2 weeks of use is what is going to set you back.  With 2 weeks of use, your body is right back into the "swing" of things.

I have personal experience in this department after my first 30 clean days resulted in a 2 week relapse.  I did it 5 more times too so let me give you a little advice on this one.  The "taking just a few" doesn't work.  The sooner you realize that even ONE of those bad boys is going to make you relapse, the better your chances will be to stay clean.

Relapse IS unfortunatey part of the process for most to get clean.  It sounds like you have learned much in all of your 3 months of reading.  Use the insight all of these people have to help you ensure that THIS wd is the last you need to go through!!!

Wishing you the best and pulling for you,

bob