How long will this go on the depression of not having my refills?

[Cissy373]

Hi everyone had a tough time last night thinking what in the heck did I do letting my refill go, but I know it will be ok...........just gonna have a lot of ups and downs for awhile.

Today I feel better but guess the waves of depression will sneak in huh?

Hope all are fighting the battle today.

Cissy

[Franny62]

My Mother gave me some great advice one time about being addicted to anything. You can always learn to hate something you love if it's destroying you, and those you love.

[Cissy373]

Hey that is a good idea and mercy letting go of those dang pills is like a grieving process.

I am feeling pretty good though and I know I didn't get this way over night and its going to take time to get my REAL life back, but I remember looking at others when I was using and thinking I wish I could be like I use to be.

I am going to have that!!

Thanks Sara and everyone.

Cissy

[Franny62]

I'm feeling some better, but still the cramps in my legs, and the diarrhea are horrible. How are you doing? The Patches were not as hard as the oxcodone so far.

[jerry4664]

RIGHT ON !!! that is classic do what ever works and good luck with the rest of the journey.

[dominosarah]

Way to go!!!  We do go thru a grieving process when we stop the pills so i think what you did was great!!  I know when i was told to do that i didnt think much of it until i really sat down and did it.....sara

[loveJwhite]

I took Sara's advice and wrote a goodbye letter to my pills....I made a little ceremony out of it. I wrote the letter and read it outloud at least ten times-listenening to myself tell the pills what they had done to me and that they are no longer welcome in my life made me cry outloud the hardest, best feeling cry I've had-it made my body weak....then I went in the backyard dug a small hole and burned the letter in it......I'm a bit dramatic, so writing the letter is probably enough. I have felt good since my breakdown the other day. Listen to Kleen and Sara and Bob-they know what's up. Good Luck girl.....kisses

[jerry4664]

I have about 30 10/325  left and have been tapering off for two weeks now from 6 ea to 2 ea a day and late in october I will be down to 1 aday and when the scrip runs out im done for ever I wish you the best of luck and remember its hard but all worth it I just want my life back just like you and many others on the blog............................

[dominosarah]

Write a goodbye letter to your pills.  I did this at one point and it was very healing.  You saved your life by letting go of those pills.  Doesnt get any better than that.......sara

[jstntime]

Hey Cissy.......

Never doubt for one second that it was the right thing to do!!!!

Because you have made these courageous steps and have shown it possible, others will follow you.

Keep keeping!!!!

bob

[Cissy373]

You truly do have my prayers and everyone on this forum. This is a hard battle to fight, but we need each other and a good support system.

Congrats on your 3 days clean!!  How are you feeling now?

Cissy

[Cissy373]

I know letting the refill go was the best thing for me, and today feeling better.

I was one the pills 4-5 years.

Laurel453 that is the key to keep the ole mind so busy you are dog tired at bed time and I am doing good on sleeping. I am lucky that way.

Today is my 5th day clean and think I am going to start a journal of my first day of WD's and giving up the refills etc; so that down the line I can read back and see what I truly went through.

Prayers and good thoughts to every person on this forum....never would have found the courage to tell my husband or give up the refills without you all.

Cissy

[NoMore81410]

Cissy- The hardest part with this is dealing with the mental part. Yes there will be days that you feel you are on top of the world then there will be days where you are just plain worn out but take the good over the bad. Your body is purifying itself and it has to go through different stages. I am in the part of my recovery where just trying to remember names and spelling has been difficult. I have been on them so long that the brain just has to get readjusted. You did the right things for not getting another refill!
Keep your mind busy! You are doing great!
Hugs!

[Franny62]

Cissy373, Bless your heart, and way to go. I'm on my 3rd day of WD, and I'm so scared.I wish you great success in your strength. How long were you on the meds? The longer your on them the harder it is to detox. The patches Fentynal were hard, but nothing compared to the oxycodone in my opinion so far. Please keep me in your prayers that I can survive this WD!

[Ballgame]

It's weird but i didn't get depression when I went through wd. Guess I'm lucky but my wd are awful

You'll get through it, we promise

[laurel453]

I think that everybody congratulated you because it was the best thing to do , Cissy... and it was indeed the best step to take... having a refill leds to relapse...so feel proud :) now feed your mind with positve thoughts to help you better to ride those depression waves, stay busy, exercise.... you can do it.

keep fighting and working on your recovery !! all the best :)