Same person new thread, recovery......

[wantnormalagain]

I posted a new thread so th eold one would go archives, I am doing okay today, it was a hard morning but did what had to be done, did my chores, Grandma is comming, i am excited to see her now that i am clean, well recovering, i havent used in i think almost 2 weeks i lost track of time, but i still struggle some days over the last while, i think stress was a trigger, i have turned to food as a substitute, lol.. well mom hime baked goods anyways, and cookies. I know prob the the healthiest but better than what i was doing, I appreciate all the help and advise im gonna do this, i see the shrink Tuesday i will go through everything with her

[wantnormalagain]

I have 1 on my shoulder blade and mom just about had a fit first time she saw it (6 months later), so I don't know, maybe, but everyone would ask why? I don't know maybe. It would be a reminder each day.

[cleaninitup]

I see a tattoo in your future   :) " I CAN DO THIS"  

[tgtiffany]

I read your posts now and it's like a complete 180!  You're completely different now and it's awesome :)  Glad that you got some answers from the "shrink"  lol I guess since my major is psychology and I wanted to be a Psychologist I don't ever really use the that word lol  Anyway, Have a great day and don't forget to smile :)

[wantnormalagain]

Morning
  Thank-you, I don't see myself as someone who helps but if I have then great, I just try to keep a positive attitude,,,I CAN do this, someone told me it was annoying but it's what i beleive and has worked for me, and yes my mom is a great person, with what i went through it was hell,but she was always there for me, and I think it has made our bond alittle stronger, I hid alot for along time from her, and i think that hurt her alot, we have talked alot since and that seems to be her big thing why i didnt come to here earlier and tell her she would have helped me then, but my ex used and i had a hard time quiting because of her family and our mutual friends which seem to be just her friends now, and im okay with that, I havent spoken to her about everything as of yet, have spoken in passing but i have a hard time looking at her after all she did, not the fact she still uses, but the way she treated me and acted after., but i am not looking for a relationship, going to concentrate on myself, I got roped in once by someone and it wont happen again,
I am glad you are recovering also, I would love to see nobody ever do them again, I am here if you want to talk or just vent,I found i needed to vent the odd time, So i have an ear for ya, Hop you have the best day possible, stay positive and remember you CAN do this

[atthebeach]

good morning, yes the recovery time is slow, you have to be patient,endure,work at it, hope,trust,believe. the psychiatrist will give you tools and help  you learn to deal with your triggers. it wont happen in one or two sessions. i always believe that an inpatient program is the best. it is a very short bleep on your radar screen . in 30 days there you will learn at a must faster pace, be involved in counseling everyday, group sessions,you will only be working on your recovery and not have any distractions. i hope and pray that would seriously consider it. you are so young and if you equip yourself with the resources and tools, now it will benefit you for a lifetime. i am so proud of you that you are doing so great. your attitude is half the battle. stay positive you are fighting the good fight.
sending blessings and hugs
debbie

[selfinduced]

Just a quick note to tell you I have followed your story and it is what motivated me to finally jump on. With the hell and drama you had to endure while fighting for sobriety is amazing. As all have told you , your mom is very unique. Tough as grit, but soft when needed. (ya think she rents out to others needing home withdrawel haha). Just had to let you know, your expierence here has made a big difference in so many. Thank you.