Same person new thread, recovery......

[wantnormalagain]

I posted a new thread so th eold one would go archives, I am doing okay today, it was a hard morning but did what had to be done, did my chores, Grandma is comming, i am excited to see her now that i am clean, well recovering, i havent used in i think almost 2 weeks i lost track of time, but i still struggle some days over the last while, i think stress was a trigger, i have turned to food as a substitute, lol.. well mom hime baked goods anyways, and cookies. I know prob the the healthiest but better than what i was doing, I appreciate all the help and advise im gonna do this, i see the shrink Tuesday i will go through everything with her

[selfinduced]

No need in my oponion to have another thing to keep up with. Having said that it is so apparent you are  a special person on this forum. Folks do want to know your ok. I am recovering thanks to your courage and I felt you were worse off than I at the time. I thought if he can do it so........... By you staying on track valadates all the work we do and gives us all insentives to achieve. You have amazing things in your path. How cool to walk it a clearheaded sober person. Have a great weekend.

[wantnormalagain]

Well I am not sure what to say, I guess I will start with Thank-you, I hope your recovering also, if not you can do it, I won't lie it wasnt a walk in the park by any means but can be done. I eat alot healthier now, work out like I used to, interact with people in a difrent way and have learned alot of compassion. As I have said if not for this site, I honestly don't know how my life would have gone, but I am glad this site was here and the people in it, The advice people do give is incredible and the support like no other I have experienced besides family. I should have logged on more but well life took ahold again, and I have been busy, and the travel to Calgary and to California I honestly didn't think to log on, my mistake but i will try to log on each day at least to say hello to everyone, again thank you

[selfinduced]

Just had to say how proud I am of you. You were my first inspiration on here that finally made me log on. I had been lurking for quite some time. Your realness, earthiness, and sweet nature made me want what you had. Following your story put the severity as well as solution to this battle. Thank you, and again....SO, SO PROUD!

[wantnormalagain]

Yes, 56 days in,,,,I have to admitt the first 30 or so were real hard, but I stay busy with the ranch, and am back to working out each day 60 mins, I run each morning. I have come to realize that excericise is the best for getting through the cravings, sometimes (when lazy) a dumb movie to take your mind of helps also..lol... Still single ;( but thats okay, I spend alot of time with Stephen when not working, when I was using I forgot the little guy and that wasn't fair to him, (no he isn't mine) but I did spend alot of time with him before my addiction, I forgot how and who I can be, but love myself now, I still struggle the odd day, some are still real hard, I had to let a ranch hand go, due to his addiction, we tried but he wouldnt or didnt want to clean up and it was to hard on me, I have lost a couple good friends as they could not use around me, it sucked but i have to look out for me,,right? or is that just selfish? Yes it was my first time to California, I have to admitt it was over welming, I'm small town country boy, that was a big ol city, bigger than I have seen, but I did have fun, learned to surf alittle..lol... and got to scuba dive, that was great. I want to go to England next, maybe 2 year anniversary, Mom loves me being me, we have agreed not to talk about that time, but not forget it either, I really appreciate all of those that helped me through this site, you are all amazing people and were so helpfull and understanding, I have recomended this site to everyone I know who uses or have come across that use. I owe my life to this site, and the people in it, thank you so much each and everyone of you, including the CMPG or whatever her handle was, even she helped in a small way, made me determined and more cautious of the internet, I don't do alot online, Im kinda the old fashion guy, I still write letters, and use a house phone...lol...my friends say I am tech challanged, but I like it, but this site was amazing, and so are all of you, thanks so much for all the advise and help you gave me......I have a question for you though, I have a friend down the valley, who is addicted to those evil little things, and wants to quit like I did, but says he tried cold turkey can't do it, he found or got dont know, anyways 8-8mg Suboxin, he was thinking if he did it for 4 days at 8mg then reduced his usuage by 2mg or 4 mg each day if that would work, I didnt have the answer for him, and he doesnt have internet, I told him it sucked or 10 days but did get better, he wont do cold turkey, said I looked like **** and that scared him, but wants clean like me,,,I told him I dont care how he does it, just as long as he does it, but I can't hang with him till he does, i think that hurt his feelings so he is serious, we have been friends along time, I think he values that, I will pass on any info anyone gives me for him, I did a search but could not find anyone who did a short time on this suboxin thin, just ppl who took it for a long time, don't know what to tell him, I feel i need to help him, I want to help everyone who is using, as I said I give everyone this site

Thanks to each and everyone of you

[atthebeach]

thanks for checking in ,so very nice to hear from you !!!!!!!!  so proud of you and very happy for you. congrats on 56 clean days and on many,many,many more to come.
glad to hear the road to recovery is getting smoother. i also have thought about you many times recently shame on me for not sending a pm. keep up the counseling,keep up your guard,you have worked very hard to get to this point,
thats nice, california--- money well spent,
tell mom hi for me.
please do let us know once in awhile how you are doing. we like to know that all is well
keep fighting the good fight,
keep on keeping on
keep the faith
sending hugs and continued blessings
debbie

[cleaninitup]

Hey buddy! Great to hear from you and so so glad you are staying clean.Have thought of you many times over the last weeks and was hoping you were well.Stay clean! You can do this!