Same person new thread, recovery......

[wantnormalagain]

I posted a new thread so th eold one would go archives, I am doing okay today, it was a hard morning but did what had to be done, did my chores, Grandma is comming, i am excited to see her now that i am clean, well recovering, i havent used in i think almost 2 weeks i lost track of time, but i still struggle some days over the last while, i think stress was a trigger, i have turned to food as a substitute, lol.. well mom hime baked goods anyways, and cookies. I know prob the the healthiest but better than what i was doing, I appreciate all the help and advise im gonna do this, i see the shrink Tuesday i will go through everything with her

[wantnormalagain]

Also, atthebeach

   Thank-you for your support, I realy appreciate it. I have my bad days and good days, to be honest usualy the bad days out weigh the good days. I stay busy and find that it helps keep the mind off of the cravings, sometimes. I will post each day, as time may allow, I have a few more chores to do each day for a few weeks, and well that takes up alot of my time for now. I am looking forward to the weekend, thats what keeps me going each day, she has told me as long as I stay clean I can visit him or do diffrent activities with him, He isn't mine by birth but i have been there since the beginning, and dad hasn't (don't know why) but back to topic, That should and will help me stay clean, i like the little gaffer

[tgtiffany]

Good to hear that everything is going well :)  You're doing great!

[atthebeach]

hey thanks for keeping us posted. i am so proud of you. continue to fight the good fight,keep on truckin, keep on keeping on.you have a long,wonderful,clean and sober,happy life ahead of you. keep up the counseling,
pray and ask the LORD to help you with your depression. have a very nice weekend!!!!!
sending hugs and blessings
debbie

[wantnormalagain]

Morning

   Yes I have spread myself thin, but I want my old life back now, I just push myself each day to do things I used to, try to stay as busy as I can, this weekend I am going camping in Alberta and taken Stephen with me, he is so excited. I have not used anything not even my sleepers any more nor the meds the shrink gave me for anxiety or depression (seriquil), I won't even take tylenol for any reason as I don't want to do anything that could screw up what I have done. Mom has informed me we maybe loosing a ranch hand for a few weeks or months, not sure exactly why but she has said we may pay his flight ticket home for a little while. Her decision for whatever reason, unusual, she isn't telling me everything, but she must have her reasons. Anyways I hope everyone has a great weekend, I will be back on Monday morning to check in, I hope everyone is doing well, and is continuing at whatever stage of recovery they are at, I would love to see everyone in the world kick thier addictions, so everyone can enjoy life.
  Have a great weekend, see everyone Monday, I appreciate all this site has done for me, and I will start posting more often, just some days the depression does get bad, but everyone has said it is part of it that it will go away, I don't think suicidal thoughts, I just get down on myself, my self esteem takes a beating during my depression, thats why I keep as busy as I can, doesnt give the mind a chance to think
  I wish to thank everyone who helped me through all of it, you truly are a great bunch of people
   Have a great weekend everyone,

[sudie58]

it is easy to spread yourself too thin! you need to take care of you! your being clean and staying clean is a priority ! this site has been a huge part in your recovery, so i hope you do post more, you have done so well,  and you will be happier again, i wish you well.  

[wantnormalagain]

Morning

  Sorry I have not been on lately, our computer was still acting up so back it went and I have also been busy with chores and meetings with the shrinks, everything is going well except for the depression, I just can't seem to shake those cob webs, I soke to my shrink and she said that it is normal to be depressed for a little time, it is the body revolting no opiods still. I would have thought by now it would be used to it. I am tempted each day, and more so when friends I don't need to see simply stop in, I tell them as polite as possible however some don't seemm to catch on no matter what, So I may need to be direct and just be rude, although that is not me, I may need to be. I push on each day as it comes, sorry Tgiffany if I caused worry, just have been busy and computer issues, sometimes it feels like I spread myself to thin, maybe that is the reason for my depression, shouldn't guess but I can't think of another reason, Miss you all. Thanks so much