hurt so bad

[b54b]

This feeling of dread and overwhelming fear just wont stop.  I am so scared all the time.  I have been off oxy for 8 weeks now and I feel like I should be better than this.  Why am I still feeling this bad.  I just want it to stop.  I dont know how I am going to make it through work tomorrow I am so scared  please someone help me.  I pray and pray I read the big book and I know using is no solution but i still hurt  please help

[motye51]

I had very high anxiety that came in waves for a while after I finished my w/d...I think it's par for the course.  Normal....VERY inconvienent but normal. I would sit on the ground and put a cold rag on the back of my neck when I would start feeling it come on! Lessen the amount of caffeine your taking in right now for sure, including coffee.  Don't eliminate it...but lessen it.  Go sit in the sun for a little while each day if you can....the sun will affect your mood more than you will ever know.  Do you have earbuds where you can listen to soothing music?

[b54b]

yes  waves are a good way of describing it.  although it is now 2pm and I have gone all day without one.  the longest period of time in 8 weeks....  
cant describe the relief I am feeling right now.  

[motye51]

I think where your at is probably normal....being that your drug of choice was "drugs" have you ever considered N/A? I find that the people in N/A are much more well versed in the mental aspect of w/d. Not saying alcohol isn't a drug, b/c it is, if I were to pick up a drink it wouldn't be long before drugs followed! Do you find the panic is coming in waves?

[Ernest01]

The Depression can be overwhelming at times. Its important to stay constantly busy and stay with a positive crowd

[b54b]

yes I have a sponsor in AA not NA and sometimes the questions for the mental part he admits he doesnt know  thats why I asked how long will this go on for.  I too can only take reality in spurts anxiety is hard never had this before.  feel like running away and depressed all day somedays

[motye51]

I agree with all the above, especially get your butt to a meeting asap!!!! However, just a question.... Were you feeling this anxiety over the 8 weeks??? Is there anything going on in your home right now that would cause anxiousness??? Just a tidbit....It took over 30 days for my physical w/d to start being less and at 60 days....omg....I could still only handle reality in spurts....I'd be good for a few hours then I'd lose it.....do you have a sponser in the program your working?

[atthebeach]

Hey you need to get out of your own head. Keep yourself busy. Work will be a distraction. Think as positively as possible. You have to keep the faith.
No using will absolutely not make this better It will cause more of a downward spiral. Get out today and walk in the sunshine.
You are not alone in this. Keep praying, keep reading.
Call your sponsor, go to a meeting.
You are healing. Don't give up hope.
Sending encouragement, support, healing and peace,
Debbie