Scared from meth use after 7 years

[Blueskyguy]

7 years ago I successfully stopped taking small amounts of cyrstal meth (only snorting).  It terrified me with panic attacks and guilt and was stupidly done in the gay club scene and I was around people that did it back then.  I saw a therapist, got through it and felt great about that.  Unfortunately I haven't stopped drinking at clubs and have been hanging out with friends that do coke so got into that last Spring on and off.

Here's my problem.  I was working at a club having a great time with friends last Friday night.  I'd had more than normal amount of drinks and asked someone I knew for a bump of coke.  He gave me a baggy and said it was Tina (meth).  I stupidly did some against by better judgement.  Worse part is that I was seen by the boss and may not have a part time job there anymore.  I only worry because I heard he fired someone before for that.
That paranoia all aside, I've got a terrible panic attack and can't leave the house 4 days later.  I bet this will pass but feel alone now and scared.  Too embarrashed to talk to anyone and wonder if I should go to my doctor or try and find a psychiatrist fast.

Any help appreciated...

[Blueskyguy]

Thank you for responding.  It almost made cry.  I feel this confirms my hatred for the drug and hope it really sticks this time.  I don't need another of these situations from loss of judgement from drinking too much.

Now I just have to figure out how to make it past this panic attack feeling that almost caused me to drive to the ER today.  I do feel the paranoia big time.  I feel nauseous and don't want to eat but making myself.  I am also feeling cold in spite of warm blankets.  I am definitely a whimp about all this :(

[kc156]

As you know,meth will make you paranoid .I used it for years and found all the worry was usually not  worth the worry.BUT,try to stay away from it,then there is no worry.At least you are not shooting it.That is a whole other problem.                           Karl