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[shearlea]

I saw so many wonderful responses to this website. I am going to put my question out there and hope for the best. I have been in a relationship with someone for about 5 years. I don't believe that he was ever there, we both used for awhile, it was horrible and he was the most despicable person I've ever met in my life. I don't mean any harm, but I need to be hones of what I think and been through, whether it's okay at this point, don't matter. I just need to get this out. i have been in recovery since 1985. I got saved and my Higher Power really did change my insides.I made meetings, did service and was truly getting clean to the utmost.Then I moved out of state, got away from my network and started getting involved with the wrong people. I was working and going to school. (this pains me as i write, please I need your help, be patient with me). I almost can't say it all right now. I am so ashamed for letting the things that happen to me happen. I thought that I could talk about now, I just can't. I am crying too much. It really hurts to know I let so many times people get away with so much abuse in my life. Please help me. I need your support.

[hiskidd]

Hang in there... It's usually worse in our minds than in reality. Praying for you!

[ImDONENoMore]

No one is censoring you here - let it go and you'll feel better.  Anonymity can bnring great relief when you need it the most.

[todd46]

I am also a recovering addict. First you need to find a meeting and tell those that are there what is going on with you.You can"t let people take advantage of you it is not good for your recovery.Please find a meeting!

[gnarly_1]

when your able to talk about it again will be waiting if you sliped back into addiction we can help just let us know whats going on.......Gnarlty

[disFUNctional]

There are MANY wonderful people here....if you want to talk they are here!!!