Really Scared Now

[Iwantanewlifenow]

I just spoke with a Dr. I met who's a friend..He doesn't know me or my story...butt he brought up how all these Pain Killers are really KILLERS..He was telling me more people die from the side effect that's even reported..He doesn't know my history....I was so scared when he said they just destroy EVERYTHING and she be avoided at all costs if one wants to prevent a premature death...Even when they are used as prescribed!!!!!!! I hate that I didn't do research..I've been on my last 2 meds for 6-7 years and I think they will be harder to come off than the Morphine and Fentanyl were...I exercised hard yesterday and it improved my mood and even pain so much...NOW I'm more determined to get off these Death Pills..I'm so upset the PM Dr's didn't say one would become dependent/addicted even taking as prescribed...but I'm living proof...This is HELL trying to get off these damn things..My Dr' can be pi$$ed all he wants...I'm done...I'll find a better way or deal with the physical pain.  I want more than ever to quit CT..but know I'm not strong enough..I'm dealing with deppression and anxiety also...Now I just pray I can do a quick taper..Kids come back July 13th...Anyone who has or is going thru this please reply..I'm all alone.

[Iwantanewlifenow]

That is great...Sorry if I don't get on and reply right away...I also suffer horrible Depression that these pills no doubt contribute to...so there are days I literally can't do anything...How is it going? Please keep us informed...Anj

[socagirl12341]

I am new to this site and have never posted before.  I finally made the decision to stop taking vicodin/norco on Monday 06-06-2011.  I am now on day 3 of nothing and am so proud of myself.  I started taking the pills a little over a year ago for back pain.  Before I could realize it had spiraled out of control.  I would have to take 30mg of hydrocodone first thing in the morning just to wake up and "feel normal".  I was having such a hard time getting enough vics and constantly worrying about how I was going to get more.  

So Monday sucked, I cried all day.  Yesterday I felt like I was in a dream (foggy head), diarrhea, depressed and so on. I am actually starting to feel better for the first time today.  I am so excited to be able to live my life without those stupid pills and look forward to being me again.
I just felt like posting this for those who may be thinking about quitting, it totally ***** but then next thing you know the fog clears the shakes go away, and you can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Surprisingly, I just had to pick up a refill of vicodin for my husband this morning and I have not and will not touch them, YES!!!

[Iwantanewlifenow]

What is Clonodine...? Dr. prescribed Klonopin..an anti-anxiety..but that doesn't even touch it...I've read people say the worst is over in 7 days?? Is that really true??? I read some say taper slowly and don't put yourself thru Hell...then other who say CT...use nothing to help with the anxiety..making me feel like a complete weakling....I have a taper plan to get me off of these by the end of the month....Then I read I should just "Buck up" and go CT...I already did that with the Morphine and the Fentanyl which are WAY more powerful than these damn percs and soma...Why in the Heck can't I just CT these, too? Don't know why I'm having such difficulty..When this is over...I'm not even taking Tylenol or Aspirin....This is the worst!

[reallyneedhelp76]

I know that jittery feeling is killer!  Have you tried the valerian root?  Also, you can talk to your doctor about px'g clonodine its supposed to help ALOT from what people say on here.  I'm glad you exercise amazing how much better you feel after isn't it?  And the pain?  Oh yeah the pills totally make you think you hurt worse that you really do!  Your doing great and keep going.  And if you can just keep your mind and body REALLY busy, the worst for me was just sitting there because all i did was think about how crappy i felt so at least keeping busy made the time go by faster.  Good luck!

[Iwantanewlifenow]

Currently oxycodone 10mg/6times a day and soma...4x's a day

It's the damn anxiety and panic and the feeling I'm going to jump out of my skin!!!!!
I just want my life back..these pills do nothing anymore for the pain..that's why they prescribed me Morphine AND Fentanyl....What next...? My body becomes used to those and I just take more heavier stuff???? NO!!!! I'm already in pain..so I know my body is dependent/addicted...Thank you os much  for the hopeful words..I will keep reading and re-rereading them.

[Moke64916]

Just try to accept your current situation as it is.  Accept that your not in complete control.  Try not to think.  Try to be present in the moment.  It's scary when you don't know what to do.  If I were you I would slowly taper off the medication to avoid total discomfort.  If they are being prescribed to you they can taper you off gradually.  When you just say it is what it is.  Embrace it.  It will turn into peace.  You'll get past this.  I've been in your shoes.  Don't fear it.  Embrace it.  

[tiredofnorco]

I am trying to get off painkillers too.  You're definitely not alone.  I never realized I would become dependent either since they were prescribed by a Dr. for a legitimate chronic pain condition.  I was wrong!  What are you taking?