Tete- In a few hours I will be going to my Wed nite meeting. New Years Eve, ya think there would be something more important. There could be but I chose to go. Otherwise, I will eventually feel EXACTLY as you do now.
Look up a meeting and go. Today. You have nothing to lose but your obsession.
no I didn't go back but its so hard. I have really bad anxiety and there all I can think about...
It is so sad to see you give up on yourself. If you go back to the pills you will go through this again and it gets harder every time. I hope you didn't go find some and you will come back and talk.
This is where aftercare of some sort comes into play. To help quiet that little addict voice in your head....you want to stay clean, find some type of aftercare that works for you. I do N/A....and now would be a great time to start the 90/90!!!