Some thoughts on clean living

[Tramatnite]

After almost 9 months of abusing Tramadol and several years of weekend Vicoden abuse,I am 10 days clean. It feels so good not to have that shaky feeling by noon and looking at that damn bottle and counting pills three times a day.
I actually found a real Doctor and stopped shopping for quacks and urgent care centers.
I felt like such a low life walking into a medi-center holding my back and moaning.I could have won an academy award!
This addiction forces you to eat healthy after you are clean. Saturday I ate **** food all day and was craving a pill. Sunday was back to healthy food and vitamins and I felt like a million bucks!
On the weekends I used to love eating my pills and laying around all day watching TV.
Now if I don't keep busy I will go crazy.
I also became a gym rat. If I don't go to the gym I feel exercise withdrawls.
I still can't sleep for Sh..t. I switch between Benadryl and Ambien every few days to avoid another addiction.
I didn't realize how my relationship with my girlfriend was falling apart when I was using. When you live for pills nothing else matters and you become so self absorbed.
This morning she noticed such a change in me that she finally asked me if I was abusing painkillers.
I just couldn't admit it to her. I told her I was depressed.
I did tell my 19 year-old son everything. I am his role model and I know he has tried Vicoden recreationally. I also told him to read this forum. Hopefully it will be a wake up call to live his life straight.

[Tramatnite]

Hi Lisa,

thanks for your words of encouragement. I do plan on sticking around. The temptation will always be there and this forum keeps me grounded.
A few months ago I had a toothache. I was actually excited about going to the dentist. I was hoping I needed a root canal so I could get Oxycodone!  Well the toothache went away and so did my addiction. Now like all normal people I am praying that the pain doesn't come back... It feels great !!!!

[liscamdave]

You know what, you should continue to post here. We don't have too many success stories and we could sure use yours....

I am proud of you. And I hope you continue on this sober road......

Congrats....

Take Care, Lisa