Starting over! Today is a new day!

[scaredOFreality]

Hello
well im starting over today. Today is day one! I just have a question...is it bad to smoke pot to get over the cravings?? Isnt it kinda like jumping from one addiction to the other? It kind of feels like an easy way out even though the highs are different. Of course you go through the same kinda withdrawls it just helps to stay calm alittle . Hmmm something to think about i guess...i dont have any pot but it would sure be nice lol

[scaredOFreality]

okay guys stop okay just please stop forget that i posted this okay i just wanted to be honest with my self that is all i know that i just need to quit but i wanted to vent

[scaredOFreality]

your right i dont need anything to quit i just need to quit...no subs

[oguchi83]

I thought your advice was perfect...maybe it will sink later.
Wags

[scaredOFreality]

you just had to say something hey...i said i didnt need your pity i didnt say you were GIVING me pity

[worried878]

And I wasnt giving you pity....perhaps you need to make a plan and cut off the source you are getting them from if u want to succeed...best of luck to you

[scaredOFreality]

okay first of all i thought this was a place that u could vent and second of all i DO NOT keep the pills available i DO NOT keep them in the house...dont you know that when your addicted to something you find away to get it!!!  I wasent looking for pity. whatever i wasent looking to feel worse...keep posting hey yah i will be sure to do that...do me a favor dont bother putting ur 2 cents in i had enough of this fucken forum!!!!!!

[worried878]

Pity parties get me nowhere...have had a few for myself but I am the only one who shows up for the party!  u really have to be ready to quit...fed up and ready..it sounds like u r keeping the pills available to yourself while u r trying to quit?  Not a good idea and it they will reach out of the cabinet and burn an addict every time...we can not leave bottle of narcs in the medicine cabinet like most people can...I guess u need to decide what u want to do and make a plan that helps you succeed..not meaning to be cold...so dont take it that way.....and the forum is a great place for support...keep posting

[scaredOFreality]

I guess my son and my health isnt a good enogh reason for me to quit...i failed again...i was doing sooooooo good like i had been saying before i quit around 19 days ago and relapsed 5 times which for me was the fathest iv gone in 2 years  but i took them again today..so now iv taken these nasty pills 3 days in a row. When i set my mind to quiting i do pretty good untill the 7 days are up then i just cant seem to get past it....the cravings are always way to strong for my weak mind! i dont know what the hell im doing...one minute im feeling on top of the world and being honest with my self and the next im being a freaken hiprocrit...i just feel as if i let all you down that gave me the time and told me how strong and everything i was but most of all i let my child down AGAIN! Today i kept asking him for a kiss and he kept turning his head its like he knows mommy keeps ******* up...but nope i cant even quit for him...i know this is NO EXCUSE but iv been under alot of stress latly...my boyfriend has been in camp for a month now working which im use to but his car broke down and for some reason he no one will drive him into the closest town so that he can put some money in the account....iv beeen having to ask a family friend to get milk for my son...my mother in law wont help which i guess i cant blam her...i feel like such a failer...i cant even buy my son milk because i dont have a job...my bf acts as if i dont do a thing even though i do take care of him and the house and make sure the bills are paid even though its with his money...i thought that i was doing my part...but he's not even doing his...the internet and the phone will be cut off soon and im just so fucken stressed...boo hoo right?...why dont i just get a fucken job and do what im suppose to be doing so that my son is being cared for??  im doing this to vent so im not looking for sympathy i just failed again...anyway thanks all for listening to my whinning once again..

[scaredOFreality]

Thanks i dont have any pot anyway so we will see how strong i can be...thanks for the hope! I will be sure to get some vitamins and stuff...thanks for everything

[mimi1313]

Hi!!

Day 1 is great, you shouldn't need anything today.
Seriously, check out the amino acids. FLaddict will help you.

You can do this!! Keep posting and if you need anything pm me.

Much love,
Melissa

[cathy5841]

i personally am not a fan of smoking the weed.  jmo.....you can do this.   you have the suppport you need right here on the forum.  i just believe smoking the weed MAY lower your resolve.  good luck and pm if you need anything
cathy