yesturday laughs today tears

[msinsane]

well yesturday i joked alot but today i am full of tears as everyone knows my husband has left me well some girl called my phone questioning me about my husband so i called him and he said they were only friends BS  now i am completely a reck he loves to bring me down now i know for sure it is over he had to of been messing with her befor i confessed to my addiction i hung up on her and didnt reply to her I AM HIS WIFE  who the hell is she to question me one pill and i would feel better but that is what he wants me to do and i refuse.....i am so sick and tired of this shyt one thing after another.....

[traveladdict]

I think you are doing real great!  Although you are dealing with more than deserve at this time.  You are looking for positive outlets to focus your energy and keep from using. You are being a great example of how to hold up in troubling times.  Keep it up.

[ilikevics]

You can be that strong.  Don't let him cause you to use.  He is not worth it.  I never would have made it had I not started going to counseling in the beginning of November.  It was alot to handle emotionally.  Our divorce was my fault, I just couldn't quit the vicodin.  I still would be taking them if I hadn't found out I was pregnant.  I read your story and I identified to you.  Please post to me anytime.  I still have some very hard times,  but the BF helps me to get through those.  I ran into an old flame of mine from 24 years ago, and we reconnected.  He has been a lifesaver for me.  Be strong, enjoy your weekend, and just keep in my mind, that if he is seeing someone who has the audacity to call and question you, they deserve one another.  Let him go and stay strong.

[msinsane]

ilikevics thank you if you made it htrough all of that i can i hope i vcan be as strong as you dam  i feel your pain  thankyou for sharing that with me i am sorry for all that you been through and i hope to be posting like you soon congrats on the 90 day mark that is huge
hopsing, i will let you know when i make it through the tunnel lol i do feel alot better just from letting out my feelings on this forum

[toxictome]

the good ones will come...this is a process...it takes time...but you are clean for this minute...I know you are going thru alot...but i promise it will get better, IF you KEEP doing the next right thing...and yes, i think it's a good idea, leave your phone off!
Remeber, thaose pills aren't going to do anything good, that's why you're on this site in the first place...think it thru...play the tape all the way to the end...

[hopsing94]

You sound like your gonna be fine. I hate to hear what you have to go through but your right this is probably a big test and you will pass. Dove is right there is a whole new life for you and your almost at the end of the tunnel. Good to get away.

[ilikevics]

Girl my heart hurts for you.  Don't cave in.  I found out I was pregnant (with hubby's baby) on 10-08-07, quit cold turkey on 10-11-07, got divorced on 10-19-07, miscarriage on 10-29-07, and I made it through.  I just made the 90 day mark without vicodin.  Please be strong.  He was using your confession as an easy out and a way to blame you for it.  Your best revenge is going to be staying clean and sober.  Let her have him, doesn't sound like he's worth a hoot anyways.  I will keep you in my prayers.

[msinsane]

one day at a time hour by hour as long as i dont pop them darn pills i can only have soooo many bad days before the good one have to eventually come right

[toxictome]

You are doing all the right, healthy things....good for you...it is tough,but you seem strong willed and it will get better. When i got divorced...i just had to stay in the day...because when you start looking ahead, your mind starts whirling and things get out of control...so, do what you need to do for today and when tomorrow gets here, it will be today again,and so on....

[msinsane]

thankyou all i keep saying to myself over and over :everything happens for a reason" and if this is the test i am going to have to pass well i must pass it then a pill will only help for a moment until reality sets in and then i hate myself even more i am doing this for me and my kids i love yall

[dove3053]

There is a light at the end of the tunnel. There is also a new life waiting there for you and your kids. Better than turn you cell phone off, change the number. You don't needed the added pressure.

Dove

[msinsane]

i am getting the kids bags packed and mine we are going to my friends house today for the weekend so i am feeling better and i am turning my cell phone off so i dont get no more calls and the main reason i am going is soo i know i wont end up using i got to keep myself around positive people and my friend she does not even drink so we are gonna get some movies and junk food and hopefully my mind set will change.....thank you for listening to mt drama i keep telling myself stop feeling sorry for myself....is their a light at the end of the tunnel....

[hopsing94]

My guess you confession is not the reason he left so don't blame yourself. That was nothing more than an excuse and crappy way to do what he did. You be the better person right now,don't give in to any temptation. Having a girlfriend come over and getting out of the house would be good. You have come so far and this may be a blessing in disguise. God works in mysterious ways. Good luck

[dove3053]

In my last marriage I wanted the truth but came to know I would never get it and maybe that was for the best. Staying with a friend maybe a good thing. I know how hard it is to get this out of you mind, but this to shall pass.

Dove

[msinsane]

i am trying i just can not get things out od my head right now i might go stay with a girl friend this weekend i wanna get out of this house i am soooo sick to my stomache i have sooooo many things going on in my mind all i want is for him to tell me the truth but that will never happen ....

[dove3053]

Having been through a few divorces. I know in the end when you stand before the judge looking great and clean your husband will take notice and so will everyone else. That feels good.

Gizzy said everything happens for a reason. Maybe the reason was to get rid of this husband and start over new.

Until then live one day at a time. In my case I live 1 hour at a time.

Dove

[toxictome]

Hang in the girl, I too am not having a good day...but we will support each other and stay strong thru this...one day at a time...one hour if that is what is needed...we can do it....no one is worth going BACKWARDS over......keep your vision looking ahead.

[msinsane]

he is not even close to all that and a bag of chips no i said nothing to the girl i cofessed to my husband shortly after i got clean right befor new yrs and shortly after he left i can only omagine if i gave him the details of my addiction....i have always thought he left for another reason and now i know for sure now he wont stop calling me and i wont pick up the phone... i have no clue who the girl is yet....she blocked her number so she must  know something i am soooo stressed out ....forget me what about my kids  he is an ityit well now i have to be strong and this is hard i would rather go through w/d again and again than to deal with this but i have to prove everyone wrong who thinks i am gonna fail and most importantly do this for my kids and my selfish self

[enemy48]

I'm saddened to hear of your sorrows.  You confessed the addiction to the girl or to the hubby?  Why didn't you tell her you were his wife?  Or did I misunderstand?

Do you know this sl-t?  Is your husband all that and a bag of chips?  Don't mean to sound harsh.  Sorry friend.  

I've been through 2 divorces.  I've heard you haven't lived till you've been though one.  Not that I believe it, but I know what it's like to be alone raising children.  

[dove3053]

Tears are part of the process, it's only natural. I think your husband is messing with you which makes him a creep. Your going through alot at one time. You have come along way so keep up the good work. The best revenge is to live well yourself.

Dove

[gizzy32]

im sorry sweetie. it seems like your taking on so much right now, its not right. being put to the test over and over again is hard, but i am so proud of you, because you have stayed clean throught this. i really have a lot of respect for you, and you are right, he probably does want you to slip up, but girl, your to strong for that. remember how far you have come, all this is happening for a reason. take care of yourself. chris