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Why me!
I want to stay clean but I keep relapsing, Im so afraid that I wont rise above this. Im sick and tired of this. Im at the end of my rope. I tried again, and got so sick I took a 30. I did not even feel it. I love my kids, im spending my money on this habit. But I feel so sick, and can't even move, I just feel so weak. Wish I hd someone to taalk to about this. Im going to try again tommorow.
I made it through work, but I kept on gaging all day. Shaking and sneezing. But I was burning up. It feels like my skin wanted to come out of my body. This is the worse. Im trying hard. And Gnarly, I know NA is important. I have to accept that, because obviously what Im doing has not work.
Hi there ~
I just want to echo what gnarly wrote above. I, too, tried to get clean on my own - alone... I just couldn't do it. For me it was a long process, but ultimately... meetings, meetings, meetings. I highly encourage them once you get past your detoxing. So very sorry you're so sick right now... my heart goes out you... stick to it girl and you will get thru.
N/A and AA are filled with genuine people just like here in the forum... who will support you and show you - teach you and new way to think. We addicts have a thinking problem. Mostly we need a new way to do life - sober. For me and so many others, it's invaluable to surround ourselves with other recovering addicts who have are walking the path successfully.
Keep at it! Praying for you now jojo!
I just want to echo what gnarly wrote above. I, too, tried to get clean on my own - alone... I just couldn't do it. For me it was a long process, but ultimately... meetings, meetings, meetings. I highly encourage them once you get past your detoxing. So very sorry you're so sick right now... my heart goes out you... stick to it girl and you will get thru.
N/A and AA are filled with genuine people just like here in the forum... who will support you and show you - teach you and new way to think. We addicts have a thinking problem. Mostly we need a new way to do life - sober. For me and so many others, it's invaluable to surround ourselves with other recovering addicts who have are walking the path successfully.
Keep at it! Praying for you now jojo!
Hey Jojo. How high of a fever are we talking about? It's pretty common to have a slight fever during detox, but anything over 101 would be of some concern. You very well might be coming down with some sort of infection. Our bodies and immune systems are compromised during the detox process and we are more susceptible to illness. Try to drink lots of fluids and rest as much as you can. If your fever gets above 102, I would either call your doctor, or go and get it checked out at urgent care, or the ER. I hope you start feeling better soon.
Is it normal to have a high fever when going through withdrawals, I never had that before, but this time I do.
Hi I use to relapse a lot to it wasent till I found the rooms of N/A to help keep me clean time for you to make a few meetings the 12 step program will change the very way you think without this im a hopeless dope fiend it will teach you how to take life on lifes terms the addict is alive and will continue to take you down until you change your thinking give it a try.............................Gnarly.......................................
Im burning hot, im sweating this is awful, I just want this to end I have to be to work in the morning, I have to get clean, I can't keep living like this. God help me
Get rid of your "just-in-case" stash. If you want to get clean you have to set yourself up for success. If the pills are there you will take them. Where does this end? Change your attitude. Get positive that this is all a good thing. Keep pushing forward. Whatever you do just don't use.
Thank u guys for caring enough to answer me back. The reason I took the 30 is because the withdrawals got the best of me, I was so sick, so Im again going through the same thing, Im truly tired of living like this. Im really trying to get clean, I got to push through this week with the withdrawals, I can't take off work. Please continue to keep me in ur prayers. Im counting the hours until im over this. Hardcore withdrawals and I have to go to work tomorrow.
Like IBK said...you need to do something different this time.
Chapter 1:
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.
Chapter 2:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I cant believe I am in this same place, but it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
Chapter 3:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it there.
I fall in...its a habit...but my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It IS my fault.
I get out immediately.
Chapter 4:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
Chapter 5:
I walk down a different street.
Chapter 1:
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.
Chapter 2:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I cant believe I am in this same place, but it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
Chapter 3:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it there.
I fall in...its a habit...but my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It IS my fault.
I get out immediately.
Chapter 4:
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
Chapter 5:
I walk down a different street.
Sooo understand where you are coming from JoJo! When my daughter was 5 or 6 she was asked to draw a picture of her family doing things they loved. She drew a picture of her mom painting, a picture of her brother swimming, and a picture of me in bed. How sad is that?! Sad enough to straighten my butt out? Nope! Do it sweetie. The pain you feel now is NOTHING compared to the regret you could feel later. Take it from a life long addict - you don't want to be a life long addict.
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. You need to do it different this time to STAY clean. What do you think you will do different?
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Just a question....what happened the day u decided to take that 30? Anything in particular? Are u going through detoxing while still trying to maintain your household?
Im just so stressed, sitting here sweating, so much anxiety, I just want to feel better. But I got to leave these pills alone. They hav ruined my life. I can't keep going through this
Yes I totally understand sick of life sick of everything. Sometimes we must hit bottom than we go up. I have bottom to bottomless pits to many times. Hang in there. Praying for you
well at least your doing more than those who arnt even trying, like most of us on here it wasn't done the first time I/we tried, I had 2 try try and try some more for at least 3 years or so!!! keep fighting the fight ......knowing u should quit and knowing u gotta quit are 2 different things!!! think long and hard about why u gotta quit and quit telling yourself u should quit!! it was the difference in my success!!!
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