Honesty is something often lost in drug abuse. It's part of a comprehensive recovery to make honesty part of who you are. We are proud of you. Keep it up !!!
I second that, suboxone is very hard to get off, harder than ANYTHING and I have done all, would gladly come off heroin 3x instead of a few years on suboxone and try to quit, in middle now, another sleepless night, start back school me and soon in week, need to be gone and clear, stressing Iam
Im so glad to hear that your dr is smart enough to see that obviously, your exactly where u need to be. Kudos for the humongous leap of faith u took by being honest!!!! That took balls....
Sooooo, what are u going to do differently??? Do not stat on those subs too long, is my only for warning....
UPDATE
Hello all, I would like to thank you all for your advice and support. As usual I work myself up over things and make myself crazy! ! Lol no more googling for me. My appt today with the dr went well. I was completely honest and he respected it. Recovery isn't easy,but it sure feels good. Thank you all
I ran out because I took an extra sub a few days. Which made me short. I was feeling crappie and anxious. I also don't know what the policy is. I do know my doctor is strict or at least feeling me out. I think this is why being honest is my best bet. I also don't have another doctor. I will have to look for one if he dropped me. I hope that's not the case. Everyone deserves a second chance, and since he wants to help people I hope he has a heart.My friend totally would help,but she lives 2 hrs away. Plus the test can tell levels of suboxone and how much is in your system and how often it's taken. After alot of great advice I've gotten I think honesty is best. Thank you for your advice and support
You guys are really awesome and supportive. Reading your comments about your own recovery is so helpful to me and definitely gives me hope. I wish you all the best.
"I am at peace with my choice of honesty and I really do think it's the best way to fight my addiction."
Now THAT'S what I'm talkin bout!!!! Good decision girl♥
Absolutely proud of you for staying honest. I was on suboxone for awhile. And in the beginning I tried to abuse it. Didn't work. Then lied to my dr. He just looked at me, like really. He said do you want to try the truth now. So I told him I took more than I was supposed to. He got me back on track. My dr was wonderful, a true addiction specialist. His heart was in it. He told me not to lie to him again , but also told me that he wouldn't ever leave me high and dry. He said I don't want you to live in fear that I'm going to take your meds away. He told me the sub is only one small piece of recovery. He said all addicts lie. And that lie is my first and last.
I guess my point is. I've been there. Know that there are great Dr's and not so great Dr's. You have to find the right fit. I lucked out and had a great dr that helped me get clean and stay that way
If your dr drops you is there another dr you could go to? Were you abusing the Subs? How did you run out early? from what i have heard "less is more" on Subs. unless you were snorting or injecting them or some other type of abuse.
Not sure if i should say this, your friend on subs can't loan you 4mg? Then your urine will have subs in it? What is your dr policy? one strike and you are out? sorry for all the question marks. You only ran out 4 days early. to me that is not a big deal but i am not a sub dr. he may want to know why you ran out early
I just wanted to thank you all for your honest advice. I really do appreciate you all taking time to read my post and responding. I thank you all and I am going in and being me. I'm terrible at lying and I don't like to. I have just read way to much online and scared myself into thinking that the doctor will not help. I am at peace with my choice of honesty and I really do think it's the best way to fight my addiction. I will update you all Wednesday after my appt. I am having some withdrawals, but I'm staying strong and focused. I hope he will be proud that I am staying strong in my fight and that I did not pick up doc. Wish me luck! !
Tell him you are having a hard time. Be honest, these Dr's have heard it all. They are used to addicts lying. And if you start rambling like that you're screwed. Be original, tell him the truth and ask for help
Thank you for your advice. I know it's definitely an addicts way of thinking, and it makes me feel worse about it. I am just so worried he will give up on me. He is not easy to talk to. I know he deal with addicts and their habits all the time, but it would be helpful if he was more approachable. I got on suboxone on my own because I saw my addiction was bad. I did all the research and work to get in the program and now this. I don't want to be deceitful, but I'm just trying to figure a way to get past it without lying. I will keep posted.
Tell the Dr everything you have told us. You already did good by telling your counselor. As I read thru your "scheme"...it wore me out. It's addictive thinking at it's best. That's what active addiction does to us.
Fish swim....addicts lie. It's an opportunity to change the course of your recovery by being honest~
I'll be praying for you....let us know how it goes~