I tried to get there...

[donewitis]

Well I mentioned earler how I was going to my forst NA meeting tonight. There was a severe thunderstorm howling wind, pouring rain in effect ..get my drift?,  ..I paced across the livingroom..should I go, should I go...? I decided if I get hit by lightening so be it. It's about a 10 min. walk..no joke, scary.
Go to the rear of the Church, a man is walking in..a woman is at the door. She said, "Are you here to pick up so and so?" Nope..here for a meeting. She stares at me..I say NA..there is a clear sticky on the door. She reads to me, the meeting has changed to another time, place..She says Website is incorrect yada yada yada.
At least I don't know too many Presbyterians.
j/k Bottom line is I tried, I made it there on time, I walked fast, I didn't get hit by lightening (I did think: maybe if I did get hit I wouldnt have to go through w/d?) I prayed on the way. Gave it my best effort.

[donewitis]

I actually meant to take 15mg today..but forgot. I thought I was going too fast the first day...but since I did  7.5mg again and got through that...I'll do as you say.
Thanks Debbie

I'm going to try to get some rest.

i appreciate all...

[atthebeach]

If you drop don't go back up that makes detox harder stay at 7.5 for a few days

[donewitis]

oh yes I will check out that site..thank you
(((Debbie)))

[donewitis]

script says Oxycodone: 15mg:Take one tablet by mouth 3 x's a day as needed = 45mg
First day: Aug 16 dropped to 7.5mg
2nd day Aug 17 went up to 15 mg
3rd day Aug 18 droppedb to 7.5 mg

[atthebeach]

the question of a taper or cold turkey. the taper makes the whole withdrawal longer. that is one reason  many people just go cold turkey. what dose are you on of the oxys?
you can also check out celebrate recovery.com christian based.
aa/na both use the 12 step program. that is fine too.
prayers
debbie

[donewitis]

right...and an AA meeting will work as well. There are more of  them.Though I no longer drink, I have earned the seat. Feeling..that's still too hard a question..numb, like a wet rag, amazed that I have put myself in this predicament all across the boad. I'm not sure this taper business is working with the Oxy. Mind you..I am not having a problem sticking to a much lower dosage. obviously if I had to get up and go to work...i would be telling a different story. It's so good to write because I just had an Aha moment. My get up and go is gone.

[atthebeach]

well at least you had a good walk. good for you. yes the fact is that you tried.
well back to the drawing board, re-check the meeting locator.
how are you feeling?
hugs
debbie

[LeaAnn807]

Yes, I've been clean a while, but I have to work at it just about all the time, or I will lose my clean time, and I know it.  The easy thing is to take a pill.  No matter how long you've been clean.  Hard part is staying sober!!!  You have to find what works for you.  And be sure you do it!!!!  

[donewitis]

Reread my post. There was no meeting. The walk helped..and just getting out of the apt was beneficial.

[Ballgame]

Good job!  Would have been easy to not GI because if weather. In Philly area it was bad!  
How was the meeting? Will it help you?

[donewitis]

Thank you. I would have felt worse if I decided not to go because of the weather. I read that you have 17 months..wow that must feel wonderful.

[LeaAnn807]

It's great that you tried.  You get an A for effort!  Just keep trying, ok?  Don't give up!

[donewitis]

First not Forst (forced) Freudien slip or what..or just the addict in me.