Vicki, isn't that the tranquilizer suggestion in the TR?? If not, I have been wrong. Thought it was a trank.
I decided to taper....I had three pills yesterday and will today too.
I do live with my girlfriend...I doubt it has anything to do with me only taking one less pill yesterday, but I did feel really distant from her. She's so black and white with just about everything I don't think she'd understand this...I know that my anxiety scares her too, and she had second thoughts about moving in with me because of it. I told her I doubted the anxiety would ever reach the level it did years ago with me basically not being able to function for a few months, but it still understandably scared her.... I just can't let her see a kink in the armor, and I especially can't let the boys see a kink in the armor. My oldest son really looks up to me and it would break my heart for him to think he's dads doing drugs.
On the bright side I know I'm making the right choice in stopping and have my dad that I can talk to about it. He actually has the pills for me to taper and will only give me however many a day is scheduled in the taper. I actually picked up his pills for him yesterday...Just knowing that I had 60 10mg vic's and didn't think about taking one and brought them straight to my dad is progress. Before I would have taken 5 or 6 without telling him....Very embarassing just typing that, much less coming clean to him about it yesterday.
So did you decide that you will tell everyone that you have the "flu"?
Haven't told her anything yet...Hopefully she won't notice since I'm tapering down and I'm not really taking a high dose. I'm actually wondering if the hazey feeling I have is not my anxiety acting up again......It's really hard to explain how wierd I feel when my anxiety is bad.
Anxiety just *****. It is one of the worst things ever. I find that taking a shower helps. Eating something healthy. Since you have had it a long time you probably already have some good ideas on how to cope with it. I also talk myself thru it. Take deep breaths try to think of calming thoughts.
Have you thought of taking anxiety medication that is less addictive and not as strong? Just a thought. Not sure if you want to be off all meds no matter how low a dose or non-addictive.
How many months have you been taking the Vicodin? You have been taking it every day correct? I ask for a reason.
Three months I think maybe a bit more...now I feel like the vics are causing my anxiety. I've only had one pill today and its four o clock in the afternoon... I took one at 8 am.