Hey Fisherman,
Your not taking a lot and it's hard to say how you will feel if you go Cold Turkey. But we have hurt our bodies and they need time to heal.
You have an issue with being able to so readily get them. Most addicts can't be around their DOC. Not to say it can't be done, it's just an extra challenge and you really have to want this!!!
Make up your mind that no matter what, using is no longer an option.
I took Vic's because I loved the way they made me feel. I was up to 20-30 5/500 per day for 2 years. Sometimes 7.5/500
I am 48 days clean. It can be done...
Now is the time to get clean because your not feeling much from what you are taking and a lot of addicts keep increasing their doses.
I hear your fears about the anxiety. Can you talk with your dr? Vicodin isn't the answer for anxiety.
Hang in there!!! Keep posting.
Hi there and welcome.Have you told your doctor about this?It's alwasy best to taper under the care of a physician-they know all your health concerns,etc.You will experience w/d's either way however they should be minimal.The Thomas Recipie is most helpful too.Maybe check that out?In any case,keep posting and keep us posted on how you're doing!!Congratulations on making the choice to quit!Stay strong!!~A
Hi and welcome ! That really is a small dose but if you feel you need to taper why not ! So you are saying you had a pre-existing anxiety condition ? I did too . I was taking a lower dose like you and it worked wonders for my anxiety for a little over a year . Problem is that it will backfire on you eventually . Did me too . At about your same does I was sick for about two days and not real bad withdrawals . It was the anxiety and light panic that was the worse for me and that lasted about 5 or 6 weeks . But even that was manageable . You can do this and thank God you where not on a larger dose .. Good luck ! Jimmy
Thanks for all the help..
I don't have insurance so the only time I have visited the Doc in the past 5 years is for injury, or when I was on anxiety meds a three month check up....
I've had anxiety issues since I was young(I'm now in my 30's) but in the recent year I've been off all meds. At one point in time I was taking 3 1mg xanax pills a day just to function. As I progressed with my anxiety and learned more about what I actually had I started tapering off. Not really on a schedule, but more that I'd forget to take one here and there. Eventually I talked to my doc at the time and we tapered off. I was also taking prosac and I tapered off that too. Which is one of the reasons I'm so mad at myself for getting myself into this situation! I got off medications I needed because I didn't want to rely on pills to be "normal", and I start taking another pill because it makes me feel good...Pretty *** backwards.
My anxiety the past year has been good...I've got xanax scrips laying around from two years ago that I just didn't need to take. I guess I could go cold turkey and if need be take a xanax, but now that I'm not used to them I get almost hangover like effects after I take one.
I guess my fear here is showing irratibility around my two boys or girlfriend..She doesn't know I take or have been taking pain pills, and I don't want her knowing.
Just thought of something. It doesn't matter if your girlfriend lives with your or not. You can get the "flu" and that will explain any crankiness or illness that you may have. Who could get mad at anyone for being cranky when they have the flu?
I didn't see a benzo suggestion in the Thomas Recipe. Is it the one that's in the Health Pages?
Vicki, isn't that the tranquilizer suggestion in the TR?? If not, I have been wrong. Thought it was a trank.
I decided to taper....I had three pills yesterday and will today too.
I do live with my girlfriend...I doubt it has anything to do with me only taking one less pill yesterday, but I did feel really distant from her. She's so black and white with just about everything I don't think she'd understand this...I know that my anxiety scares her too, and she had second thoughts about moving in with me because of it. I told her I doubted the anxiety would ever reach the level it did years ago with me basically not being able to function for a few months, but it still understandably scared her.... I just can't let her see a kink in the armor, and I especially can't let the boys see a kink in the armor. My oldest son really looks up to me and it would break my heart for him to think he's dads doing drugs.
On the bright side I know I'm making the right choice in stopping and have my dad that I can talk to about it. He actually has the pills for me to taper and will only give me however many a day is scheduled in the taper. I actually picked up his pills for him yesterday...Just knowing that I had 60 10mg vic's and didn't think about taking one and brought them straight to my dad is progress. Before I would have taken 5 or 6 without telling him....Very embarassing just typing that, much less coming clean to him about it yesterday.
So did you decide that you will tell everyone that you have the "flu"?
Haven't told her anything yet...Hopefully she won't notice since I'm tapering down and I'm not really taking a high dose. I'm actually wondering if the hazey feeling I have is not my anxiety acting up again......It's really hard to explain how wierd I feel when my anxiety is bad.
Anxiety just *****. It is one of the worst things ever. I find that taking a shower helps. Eating something healthy. Since you have had it a long time you probably already have some good ideas on how to cope with it. I also talk myself thru it. Take deep breaths try to think of calming thoughts.
Have you thought of taking anxiety medication that is less addictive and not as strong? Just a thought. Not sure if you want to be off all meds no matter how low a dose or non-addictive.
How many months have you been taking the Vicodin? You have been taking it every day correct? I ask for a reason.
Three months I think maybe a bit more...now I feel like the vics are causing my anxiety. I've only had one pill today and its four o clock in the afternoon... I took one at 8 am.
Wonder if u would be better taking a xanax instead of vics and just quit ct
Only took the xanax last night and no vicidon so I'm coming up on 24 hours
How are you feeling today?
Anxious and really emotional... I'm at the doc now. I think its my anxiety more than my vicidon use.
Let us know what they suggest.
A few xanax for panic and ride it out...
So you are off the vicodin for now?
Yea last one I took was 8 am yesterday
Besides the anxiety it sounds like you are doing pretty good (not that the anxiety isn't hard to deal with).
Yea without the anxiety I would be fine... I've been holding back tears all day... I just don't want my anxiety to ever get bad again
I really feel for you. WDs bring out tears in many of us. The pills numb our emotions and we start to feel again.
The xanax should help with the anxiety. Does it? My anxiety really got better by week 2 off of vicodin.
Yea the xanax really helps with vicidon...They wanted me to go back onto anti depressent for anxiety, but I hate the way they make me feel. I also did great for a long time with nothing no vic's and no xanax. I hope its just the withdrawls from vic's.... I've been holding back taking a xanax all day but I'm about ready to take one.