This not so much a question.. more a thought.
I AM A CODEINE ADDICT !!! I have been for 7 Years now !
BUT....
I will be in 2 weeks clean of Codeine !
Free, Clean, Fresh, and Willing to face my life head on without running away.
I tried it all.. trust me, breaking it myself by taking none when I had none because I used them all up ! and wasn't due any more.. how foolish was I !!!
To believe it was as easy as that.. after 7 years of abuse.. it was NEVER going to happen like I wanted.
Then I tried giving them to my partner to administer.. but because I knew they was in the house.. I would search them out and take more !
To the point the Drs would issue me no more.. so I would go through 2-3 days of hell placed in by my own addiction and greed for more and more !
The problem with ANY addictive drug is that eventually the dosage gets higher and higher because the feeling doesn't do as it did when it was 1-2 tablets and before you know it you are endangering your life with too much.
But there is a way... Talk to your Dr tell them EVERYTHING be honest.. My mistake.. I lied for so long to hid emy addiction so that I could continue.. but they wasnt stupid they could see and in the end the amount I was taking was noticed by the Drug Addiction Society as all Addictive Drug records go to them and they can tell if a person is addicted to a said drug and they had seen my intake rise and rise at a alarming rate.
It was then taken out of my hands and I was denied any drug for 3 days ! my lesson for abusing my Codeine when I had enough to last me.
Now I am on a program, Once a day I collect my Codeine from the local Chemist, They are aware I am now a Codeine addict an so I am not allowed to buy any other drug whilst there.
It started two weeks ago, first week 12 tablets, Second week 9 tablets.. and this week I am now down to 6 tablets.
I am of course scared of the changes coming my way... BUT strong in my resolve to do this and get through this so I can live my life for me and not a drug that was controlling every aspect of my life.
In two weeks I will be here.. Codeine free.. WOW.. I never thought Id see this day !
You too can be there with me.. you to can do this..
Belief an Faith and be honest foremost with yourself and those around you..
for when you do.. they will be there to hold your hand, love you regardless and be there when it gets tough !
My love to you all that read this, those that are beginning their journey, those that are halfway through and those that have reached the other side.. ( YOU are my Inspiration ) united we are in addiction,