Wow!! Hopeful! Inspiration! Awesome! Wonderful! Four beautiful words that discribe my thoughts for you! I am a fighter now in the battlefield, I am awaiting for the freshness air to come I am on day 2 for the stupid relapse that I made 11 days ago after being clean for a month, I love your post till the fullest, you gave me hope and runs my mind to being addiction free from heroin! I hope to do it and not only do it but fulfil it just like you did! Finally,,,, encouragement please!!! Lol
Hey awesome post farmgal! I like what you said about the energy and euphoria aspects. I think back to how much of a lush I was...I just rode that fake energy all day. And those euphoric feelings - our bodies are just not made that way- we aren't supposed to feel like that all of the time- those high highs (and the crashing lows)- its just so unnatural!
And in our early stages of recovery we want to just be 'fixed' with the snap of a finger, or after a set amount of days. Well we all know that's not how the story goes. We have to ante up and dig our heels deep as we have been abusive to ourselves for so long.
It's funny you touched on that because I've been thinking about that a lot...again, congrats! So encouraging
Awesome post!! Thank you very much for sharing this!! Congratulations to you:) I was just telling someone yesterday on a post that the one thing I hear every recovering addict say is 'I just want to feel normal again" lol I'm not sure if I know what normal even feels like but I'm sure I will know it when I feel it because like you spoke of ALL of my five senses have gotten 10 times stronger and its amazing!! I also laugh now when before when in active addiction I was stressed, angry, or crying all of the time. Life is getting better for me everyday too and I'm looking forward to normal:) thank you again for posting, such an inspiration!!
Thanks for the great post! I am truly happy for you I could feel your happiness over the computer gave me a great feeling! I actually said YES out Loud good job keep up the good work.
Be proud of yourself!
And you can do it!! lol...hate to keep saying that but it is so true!! I dont know much about tapering because I was not very good at it!! If it was there...I took it. I just had to do cold turkey off the methadone. I also eventually found a drug abuse therapist to go to..she was priceless to me as she was also once an opiate addict and really "got it".
OK, I am going to need your help..PLEASE!! I just posted so if you have a sec to read my post you can see where I am...after meeting with the therapist I'm going to make a date to jump! I'm thinking of maybe a week?1 I just need to be prepared and I will only have my therapist and you guys since no one knows :( but I DO want this more than ANYTHING in the world!! Thank you.. I will need the "you can do this" frequently!!
you can do it. I may sound strong now, but I was not then...I just kept fighting day by day. I wanted it SO BAD and I have it now. And you can too. I wanted someone to give me a magic number. To tell me it will be over in 10-20-30 days. But, everyones magic number is different...but you DO have that number and it will come. Just hang on and fight like you have never fought before. You are literally fighting for your life that opiates have taken over..you CAN have it back again. Thank you for your responses...:)
OMG!!! Thank you so much for sharing..You describe me well the me that I am now and also the me I want to be!!!! Needed this soooo much right now!!!!! Thank you for sharing and helping believe I CAN do this!!!
thanks so much for this awsome inspiring post, and congrats to you for 8 1/2 months!!
yes, it can be done!!!
hugs!
Lily