Oxy Withdrawls / Heard Lots, need answers >.>

[Nonfatproduct]

Hello all.  Well where to start..I'm 24 and for the last 2+ years have been on vic's, oxy's, methadome, mophine, and random others(none by a Doc).  Mostly oxy's 40 -80mg, between 2-8 a day, and vic's i had to take like 5 1000's... i had a healthy supply of both for a long time, and it was about 2-3 month's ago (while listening to "Sixx AM- The Herion Diaries"), that it hit me... looking @ my last pill (bout 2/3's of one) and i made it last for the whole day... then bout 8 days ago i woke up without any, and no money to boot. After i stole some money from a friend and overdrew my back account, and had 24 of those little bad boys infront of me i thought, well these should last me bout 2+ weeks.  Ya and after 3 days and i was looking @ my last 2... well 3 days ago i took my last one, and woke up that next day thinking... well time to go get a few more... i for some reason just said NO!!! NO NO NO i'm not gonna anymore... I wanna be clean and i wanna get my life back and start working again and not lose yet another GF of this..... The first few hours all i could think about was goin to get some and then it started to hit me... OWWWWE.. it started with my legs, acheing, burning, restless, among other things.. then my left side really started to hurt, then my back and before i knew it i was just laying on the ground crying,... next was the vomit in the bathroom.. then a bath and back to everything else... i start to have doubts that this is normal, that something is wrong, but everyone says its normal... well let me tell u.. There's nothing "normal" about this... over the last 58 hours i havnt slept more than 3 hours, and when i do its only 30-45min... the up acheing, almost feeling that my body is breaking and im not gonna be ale to stand up, but laying down is to painful, and i cant eat to save my life... 2 peices of toast a little soup and a protein shake... thats its in 2 days... its currently 11:21pm est. and i am writing this... about to try and eat and wait... thats all i seem to be doing is waiting... so in all this i really need some comments and help. like some experinces and helpful tips... like should i go to a clinic and get more drugs to get me off these drugs!?!?! or just wait it out or what.... please and thank you ^^

                  2 anyone that is goin through this right now or anytime, i feel ya, i truly do and this is one more person out there in this "world" that says "I very much love and care about u and i hope and wish u all the best every minute of every day.
                 All my love,^Nfp^

[newgirl2708]

thank you...
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[dominosarah]

Welcome to the forum.  You have come to the right place and yes alot are in bed but so me will be on and off thru the night.  I commend you on wanting to get clean.  This wont be easy so i am not going to tell you it will be.  I went C/T off vikes(18 a day) over a month ago and i can tell you it DOES get better.  As for the appetite......popsicles work, jello, ensure and lots of bananas.  They help the RLS.  I know alot of people soak in the tub with epson salt and some wrapped their legs with ace bandages.  You will start to feel better in a couple days.  Usually by the 4th or 5th day it gets somewhat better.  I see newgirl told you about the Thomas recipe.  I am doing that and i really believe it helps.  I went to Walgreens on day 2, throwing up and all and got my vitamins.  Try and walk even if it is out to the garbage cans.  It really does help.  Just keep telling yourself that this is a small price to pay for being clean.  I know it doesnt feel that way right now but YOU CAN DO THIS.  Keep posting as i will be up for awhile.  Just know that there will be alot of people in the morning that will give you alot of encouragment.  This place is awesome and it has helped me stay clean and trust me it is a WONDERFUL feeling and you can feel that way too.  I will keep checking on you.      sara

[newgirl2708]

I moved a post up about what you're going through on the other side, it's by one of our members named Corey. She's very good and insightful. she is someone who you can identify what you're going through right now...go read it..you will get a lot out of her story and all the comments that were made. You have to keep in touch with us also. You can't just post and then leave and not update us. We need to know how you're doing. Keep posting.
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[newgirl2708]

you need to post on the substance abuse forum. this is the social side. very few are here right now. i told everyone to come talk to you, but it would be better if you went over there right now...just click on the link at the top...

[newgirl2708]

Welcome. This is a very bad time of night to be going through this...could you please pick a better time to start your life? ;) Just kidding...Honestly, we are extremely proud of you!!!!! Keep it up!!!! Keep it up!!!!   Everyone is off tonight..this is a bad time of night. I can't remember it being so slow. I'm headed in for the night myself. Here's what I know: Everything you are feeling is totally normal. You need imodium and lots of it. You need to look up the Thomas recipe which I believe is listed in the Health pages on the top of this page right hand side. You need hot sits baths and a heating pad for your legs and cramping. Oh I see the recipe listed here on the bottom right hand side. Exercise helps me, the treadmill to be exact. Moving, moving moving...You can go to the dr for some type of rx like flexeril or xanax (sp?)
First thing in the morning go get your supplies listed and you'll be better prepared and more successful tomorrow night. You are going to feel really really bad tonight, really bad tomorrow night and bad the next. Then you just start feeling cra pp y. If you go back to using, you just go through this again...
We are all here for you, you will get a lot of help here. There's nothing better than to have someone say to you, yeah! I've done that, or gone through that..
Go get in the shower.
Take care and keep posting,
I will check on you in the a.m.
Newgirl

[shabbycat]

Hey I am here...........I just found this place and I am on my third day of methadone withdrawl. Well I caved and took some that I had been saving. I was feeling so badly and reading on here how methadone withdrawl can last 1-2 weeks to a month I just lost hope and Ill be in line at the methadone clinic again tomorrow. I AM WEAK. I have a plan though............I have been an addict all my life (that is all I can remember) I have done this **** so many times and yet here I am again and It just feels worse. My plan....I called my ex husband and talked him into coming all the way to where I live to bring me his vicodin script. What an idiot?? Right well I see it this way maybe because I am so ready to get off the junk I can use the vicky to curb the pain of the withdrawl. I have 5 kids to still at home ages 9 and 13. I have NO family friends or support. I am trying to do this on my own. I believe for me it is impossible,there is no way I can go for more than 3 days in that horrible evil pain. I think if you are still so young I beg you to get off the meds NOW and NEVER take them again. If you are an addict you have nothing but pain to look forward to if you keep taking this ****. I say keep waiting............you may almost be past the worst. It sucks so badly and who am I to tell you this since i just took methadone 4 hours ago cause I chickened out? I have been addicted to all the opiates and this is my 3rd trip with methadone. I have been inpatient and outpatient detox and Ive done it at home alone with a spouse and even had to do a detox once infront of and with the only help from my daughter at the time she was only 4. She stayed with me and took care of me for 4 days. When I think of that it freakin kills me. So just WAIT. It will be over soon. I only know that STAY AWAY from METHADONE. I have very strong opinions of this ****. I wont post it here but stay away from it. Just WAIT Youll make it!!!! Youve gone this far PLEASE stay the road and youll make it. I believe youll be over the worst soon. Please get in touch if you need someone to talk to.