trying to make THE LEAP

[smartgirlbadecisions]

hi guys, im still here lurking around, gaining information and strength through others. i had a set back a week or so ago, i was given a bunch of percs, and yep, sure enough, i had NO control. i see it so clear now... who was i kidding? thinking i could actually have something in my possession and have control. nope, i cant have both. but i dont WANT to play that game again. so, here i am, back in the tapering lane. ive been doing good, down to just a pill a day (snort)- how gross right? so anyway, i am out of pills, but i am not going to find anymore. im done doing that. i am going to quit!!!!!!!

[Dixiechick72]

Hello there and welcome back.... see youre back.... that shows that you want to make the change... and we come here for the help....you need to just post during the rough times or when you feel youre weak.... U can do this if you really want to.... we all never pictured life without pills.... but we come here and find that inner strength we need and we have our friends here support us and carry us through the rough times.... you know what to expect for the first week... just be well prepared and you'll get through it!!!!  Big Hugs and welcome back.... lets do this ok!!!!  I know you can....u took the first step to come back here...so lets do the rest and get you clean ok.... you want this right??? right.... so lets kick some butt for you and get you sober!!!  you'll enjoy life so much more!!!!  

[waterLilly7]

You CAN do this. Since you are definitely addicted to them, since you get setbacks by doing more, maybe you need the support of a group that will take the time to help you through that end of it.
Hugs and prayers,
Lily

[Free2agoodhome]

Hi,,

Sometimes the back and forth thing happens ,but it pushes the person to finally say "enough"....

The trying to control is normal. I stopped fighting the drugs. I mean I surrendered to the fact they are a power greater than me and If I take them I will abuse them. every time. I thought of it like boxing.....every time I go in the ring with pills I loose......so i stopped the fight ...and I win... because I don't go in the ring anymore,,,,, .... (hope that made sense)

Sounds like you made a decision....thats the " real"  you talking it wants its life back  ;-)

It takes a lot of courage to move in to the unknown. You are well on your way.

Tweak your plan a bit maybe ?

We are rootin for ya,,,,,


Free~

[Pat1956100]

Hi Smart
Just wanted to welcome you back.  I know you can do this.  Stay Strong.

[ImDONENoMore]

Yes you do.  That's why you came back - you want to live and you want to feel better.  That's why the pills have to stop.  You have youth on your side which will help you a lot.  You CAN do this.  I believe in you.  Now it's your turn to believe in yourself.

[smartgirlbadecisions]

hi done!! thanks for welcoming me back. its silly, i have typed out like three different questions to ask you, but as i typed them, i realized that i already knew the answer to each of them. i need to find inner strength,. and realize that i cannot go back in time. i can only die, or move foreword lol. but i want to live.

[ImDONENoMore]

Hey there - good for you for coming back.  Now the very first thing you have to do is get rid of all access to the pills - they will call you again if they're an option.  people places and things right?  They all gotta change.

It's great that you came back :)