I started using pot and coke in early twenties. Easy to stop, coke is the devils drug! One day I developed stroke like symptoms and given 4mg dilaudid every 4 hours! Referred to pain doc; gave norco 10/325 #240 with refills. Felt great! No headaches, then 100mcg fentanyl patch-no high but no headaches. I stopped them suddenly and within 4 hours took 4 norco. It took 2 weeks to get of norcos. I wanted to die. Only DT's can kill ( I'm an RN.) I was so weak but livable. Headaches came back and went back to norcos, never more than 8 a day, what a f$ck up. Your body remembers. Back to addiction in a snap. D&C because gyno needed money, he punctured my uterus and lost 30 pounds in 10 days before rushed to OR for total hysterectomy, more norcos, 3 month recovery due to mistake sewing back up the davinci surgery, then dentist totally screwed my entire mouth, need surgeries, etc. sorry to vent. I'm seeing one doctor, he knows the 411. I take soma, valium and norco as prescribed. Some days a few more norcos. Taken oxy; didn't love it or percocets. Friend takes methadone, they work great! Only 2 a day but I've had heroin addicts in hospital say they would rather detox from heroin than methadone! I can go without valium easy! As well as soma! It's that damn norco, I start jonesing if I lose track of time. Not valium, not soma but norco. My doc said I'm too young for osteoarthritis but I have it bad and I've seen what humera, etc due to people. Now I need these drugs and don't want them. Pain is awful and I'm fricking married to norcos and I'll need several surgeries.... Geez I don't know what to do! My mom is twice my age on a wheelchair because of bones. Now I need drugs, no high or recreation, because med problems. I want off all of them! The norco I can't do without. I'm talking 1 10/325 every 4 hours. I can stop everything else. My doctors office called in refills but missed norco. I'm dying here. Please no judgement. How can I quit norcos when every doctor tells me my pain is going to be chronic and unbearable? Tramadol gives hallucinations. Easy on Motrin. I hear my bones cracking when I walk. Just my genes. How can I get off norcos? My opiate receptors are dead. It can take one year to revive them. I'm not a victim, I'm sick of drugs. Any help..... Psychiatrist states I'm not depressed, hopeless,etc. he was surprised I don't seek big pain killers. I will try to live with pain. Why is it only norcos that screw me???? Any advice? Too young for all these meds but my doctor said the outlook for pain control is grim......