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What do I do?
I had a plan to stop using this Thurs. I planned the time off with my wife, organized all the supplies, scheduled the off time with work. Felt very confident about being ready. Then yesterday, I woke up at midnight and decided I wanted to see how long I could go without one. Usually after 8 hours the aches etc... made me go and take one. I stayed busy, walked the beagles for 1 1/2 hrs last night before bed. About 5-6 miles. Took a tylenol pm and an old valium I had before I went to bed at 10pm.
I woke up this morning at six, and I made it without one! I am now approx. 28 hrs without.
I feel weird, my stomach is a little messed up.
Now I dont know what to do. The plan was Thurs. I could be off for 10 days and wife would be home because shes a teacher and school is out. The reason I didnt start this week was I had important meetings this week and wife had a class she COULD NOT MISS. Now that I'm 28 hrs in I want to keep going. Wife is a little upset, she has to go to her classes this week and I have to work till thurs. She said I made her feel guilty cause we had a plan, but now I kinda started and she feels guilty about having to leave me. I told her I would be ok and to please go to her classes. I dont know if I could make it thru my work on tues weds thurs anyway. Lotta rambling as usual, anybody got any ideas? Should I stick to the original plan or keep going now?
I woke up this morning at six, and I made it without one! I am now approx. 28 hrs without.
I feel weird, my stomach is a little messed up.
Now I dont know what to do. The plan was Thurs. I could be off for 10 days and wife would be home because shes a teacher and school is out. The reason I didnt start this week was I had important meetings this week and wife had a class she COULD NOT MISS. Now that I'm 28 hrs in I want to keep going. Wife is a little upset, she has to go to her classes this week and I have to work till thurs. She said I made her feel guilty cause we had a plan, but now I kinda started and she feels guilty about having to leave me. I told her I would be ok and to please go to her classes. I dont know if I could make it thru my work on tues weds thurs anyway. Lotta rambling as usual, anybody got any ideas? Should I stick to the original plan or keep going now?
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sorry missed the part about your work. That could be a double edged sword. On one hand it will distract you from your W/D. On the other hand you dont want to be running to the bathroom every 5 minutes in the meeting. You said your stomach was queezy. mine was too but never got any worse than that. Have you had any worse issues?? Laying around at home can make W/D worse unless of course you have no choice because you are so sick. I hope this helps
3am let myself downn night from hell having huge doubts
dont know if i can make this took 3 thru the night gotta go...........
yeah im a laugh riot im hating myself right now
dont know if i can make this took 3 thru the night gotta go...........
yeah im a laugh riot im hating myself right now
TEN dollars each?!!! My goodness that's a lot of money!!! Great idea with the laptop though! I love your sense of humor, I know it's your way of dealing with all the stress and crap that you have to deal with every single day, but it's awesome. I think it's going to be what gets you through all this. That and your wife ;) I hope that you have a good night, dream of the amazing life you're going to have after all this is over :) Have a great day tomorrow and don't forget to SMILE!!!!
You are going to be okay, I started my detox on thursday so thursday is a good day, I missed calulated and 90 days is today!!! I know it does not feel like you will ever and I mean ever get to 90 days but I can't believe how fast it has been. Just know how many prayers are coming your way and how we all have faith in you, now have faith in yourself and you will be fine.
good luck and prayers to you, Bethany
ps I even went to see , Engelbert Humperdink !!!!!
good luck and prayers to you, Bethany
ps I even went to see , Engelbert Humperdink !!!!!
Bedtime....
Looking forward to tomorrow afternoon....
worried about the night, I think if I can't sleep or wake again at midnight I'm just going to go to work
Keep busy......
night all, Bless You and Love You
Talk again in the morning
Looking forward to tomorrow afternoon....
worried about the night, I think if I can't sleep or wake again at midnight I'm just going to go to work
Keep busy......
night all, Bless You and Love You
Talk again in the morning
Thank you for the encouragement! I am gonna be ok, I didnt get to be an addict in a couple of days and realize I won't get clean in a couple of days.
Baby steps.......................................all I got!
Baby steps.......................................all I got!
How dare you have a life!
Just kidding debbie. Oh yeah, talking to me is thrilling huh?
I keep referring to my "work", maybe someday I can explain, but there is EXTREME security issues,etc..... NO ONE is beyond suspicion. If you act odd in anyway, you will be checked out. Even when you are the Big Dog lol woof woof.......
The "supplier" called 10 times today. When I finally got home I called him and explained the situation. We have been friends for 23 years, long before any of this started. He understood.
GET THIS! He just came over (wife is home now) and he bought the 60+ roxys I had stashed. My wife gave them to him so I didn't have to touch them. But @ $10.00 a pop, I felt good to recoup some of the insane money I had spent. Gonna buy my daughter a laptop(for college in England) with the money. I only did this after discussing it with my wife......
Feels good for them to be GONE! Now only the hydros to flush tomorrow.
It feels great to be an honest husband again. Like I've said before, I have some money, I'm not taking food out of my family's mouth,etc.... But I hated lying to my wife. Have i said she is amazing yet?
I have terrible eating habits. I blame it on the pills. Didn't want to ruin that glourious high i guess.
Guess i COULD blame everything on them huh? But its all ON ME!
You know I tried to take a little nap earlier, and slept about an hour, then woken by the whole rls.
I got up took some supplements and got in the hot tub and guess what? I'm ok! Thats why I am encouraged by having the time off. Past few nights i would wake with the same problem but go to my pills. I see now that while i am off if I wake up with problems, there are other options, AND I don't have to go to work the next day. I think my beagles are going to get worn out during the next few weeks....LOL
And no, I never used to have to wake up to take one cause I was taking so many I was getting thru the nights ok, then running to my bottle first thing in the morning.
Again, THANK YOU, and I hope you'll bug me tomorrow as often as you can:)
Just kidding debbie. Oh yeah, talking to me is thrilling huh?
I keep referring to my "work", maybe someday I can explain, but there is EXTREME security issues,etc..... NO ONE is beyond suspicion. If you act odd in anyway, you will be checked out. Even when you are the Big Dog lol woof woof.......
The "supplier" called 10 times today. When I finally got home I called him and explained the situation. We have been friends for 23 years, long before any of this started. He understood.
GET THIS! He just came over (wife is home now) and he bought the 60+ roxys I had stashed. My wife gave them to him so I didn't have to touch them. But @ $10.00 a pop, I felt good to recoup some of the insane money I had spent. Gonna buy my daughter a laptop(for college in England) with the money. I only did this after discussing it with my wife......
Feels good for them to be GONE! Now only the hydros to flush tomorrow.
It feels great to be an honest husband again. Like I've said before, I have some money, I'm not taking food out of my family's mouth,etc.... But I hated lying to my wife. Have i said she is amazing yet?
I have terrible eating habits. I blame it on the pills. Didn't want to ruin that glourious high i guess.
Guess i COULD blame everything on them huh? But its all ON ME!
You know I tried to take a little nap earlier, and slept about an hour, then woken by the whole rls.
I got up took some supplements and got in the hot tub and guess what? I'm ok! Thats why I am encouraged by having the time off. Past few nights i would wake with the same problem but go to my pills. I see now that while i am off if I wake up with problems, there are other options, AND I don't have to go to work the next day. I think my beagles are going to get worn out during the next few weeks....LOL
And no, I never used to have to wake up to take one cause I was taking so many I was getting thru the nights ok, then running to my bottle first thing in the morning.
Again, THANK YOU, and I hope you'll bug me tomorrow as often as you can:)
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