oxycontin abuse (help please)

[slamdunc]

i relapsed and began using oxycontin agian. i have not even got close to using the amount i use to but that is because i don't have as much money anymore.  although i only use like 40 mgs to fell ok still i am still as psychologically addicted to it as ever. i really won't out but i always find reason to buy them.  i was just asked by my brother and mom if i was back into to them, i obvoiusly said no, but reget it.  i want to tell my my family truth but i feel like my parents are going to be mad (they paid for rehab the first time) and i feel like i can kick it with out other drugs, such as methadone, but i have thought i could do it myself since may. now i have also started a new job and can't afford to be not feeling good for a bit. i also have no health insurance so i really don't think i have many options.  Please any support would be appreciated.

[OnOxyfor10yrs]

Are you chewing the oxys? It is very hard to taper this drug as it only comes in smaller doses which I am sure you know if. If you can, be honest with your family or take suboxone at the lowest dose possible. Good luck and DO NOT INCREASE your intake as much as this monster ofa drug will tell you to. My guess is that you are chewing them b/c if you took as prescribed then you would have w/d every 12 hours. I am not telling you to break these in half, but do whatever you can to taper at the least. Talk to a addiction doc. They maybe can help you with some kind of taper if you are against the sub. Good luck


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[marcatj]

well, you've talked yourself into a corner..

if you "can't afford to feel bad for even a bit" i'm not really sure what to tell you.  there's no magic bullet.  we all got ourselves here, and we have to realize there's a price for getting out.

i would suggest you taper down, then quit if you can if you want the most "pain free" way of doing it.  my guess is you can't taper.. most of us can't.

you gotta change your mind set if you want to quit.  there's not magic words, no magic way, nothing anyone can say that will make you wake up one day and say "oh, i'm done and i feel better."

it takes work.  meetings, counceling, support... something.  but if you put yourself in a corner and don't ask for help, and won't allow a little struggle/uncomfortableness to get off, i'm afraid you're stuck.

please change your mindset.  realize it "takes something else" to get clean...

(and i am not judging you btw.  i have been there.  but you need to know the truth.)

good luck...
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[gizzy32]

Hi and welcome to the forum. Sometimes it's slow here on weekends, but you will get some advice soon. Although i don't know much about w/d's, 40 mg is doable. You have been through this before and the key for you is continued aftercare and support. I thought i could kick coke by myself for 5 years and no matter how hard i tried, i failed until i got some help. I did attend N/A for a bit and talked to my aunt who's an addiction counsellor, then i got lucky and found this place, it has kept me clean.

Sometimes telling those in our lives about our addiction makes all the difference in the world, it held me accountable and i could no longer hide. I know you can do this, you posting here today shows that. There is ALWAYS options. Your a young guy, with your whole life ahead of you, so it's time to put this behind you and stay clean. Pills are not my DOC, but you will get a lot of help and support here so stick around. Best of luck to ya. You can also look up the thomas recipe in the health pgs here on the top right, i heard it helps.