have you guys talked about a suboxone? there's alot of info out there for it. personally i think its a better route than methadone.
ive never known anyone ever do anything 'with someone else'
one or the other always fails and then the second person fails BECAUSE the first person did.
do it for your self, by your self, its your life.
if and when your a year clean, the person you marry will be,
You two sound real cute together but it sounds like you are not going to be able to do this thing together. Why are you not sold on methadone but you still think it is alright for Jason?
I had a boyfriend for 2 1/2 years while i was using. Nothing bothered me that he did. ha , i always felt great because i was always under the influence. Looking back now with a clear head. I should of stood up and voiced myself a heck of a lot more than i did. He didn't use, only me.
This is a battle that is between you and the drug. And it is time for confrontation. You need to surround yourself with strong, sober, supports.
You sound very wise knowing that you don't want to enter into marriage until you are both clean. I personally think that is a good idea. I have read many of your posts, and I am wishing you all the best. Jason needs to say no though. Maybe if he said "No honey you really don't want an oxy, the craving will pass"...that would help a lot since you say he never is the initial one to bring it up. I am sure it is very hard for both of you, and I am wishing you both the best in whatever decision that you make. Is your Mom still around to help or does she know that you have went back to the pills? Just wondering as I know she was a huge support at one point.