When will it end?

[brickjones]

I'm a 20 year old, college student who up until recently thought I had this substance abuse thing under control. I'm a pretty smart kid and have been maintaining a good GPA at a competitive school. Looking at me, you'd never think I was much of a partier but I've been experimenting with drugs for about 4 years now. Coke, shrooms, weed, wet, MDMA, prometh, xanax, opiates, pretty much whatever I could get my hands on. This past year I feel as if ive been losing my grip. My grades are slipping, i find myself preferring to drink rather than do homework. I thought by cutting out all illegal drugs and just drinking i would be "better" off, but that proved to be as dumb as it sounds. I recently got arrested and charged with a DUI, and I just dont know what to do. I always said my alcohol use would never interfere with my life but now it is, and I feel like i'm just watching it happen.

I know there isn't much point or direction to this post. It honestly just felt good to write out how I feel.

Thanks.

[toothfairie]

yes give it a try.....it could really help you to talk to people that are going thru the same thing.  Keep posting for support and you will get lots of info and advice on this forum.  Good luck and stay strong!!  we are here for you!!

[brickjones]

Thanks for your support and advice! Ill look into some support groups, I feel like that's the only thing that'll get me through this tough time. But no, this is my first time posting.

[toothfairie]

Just wanted to lend my support....it can really get away from you quickly....try to get some counseling of some kind or hit some meetings....good luck and keep posting for support...you are so young and have your whole life ahead of you....put this behind you before it gets any worse....

[10356]

Hi Brickjones.. Welcome to the forum. when I read your words it reminded me very much of what my Niece had gone thru 2 years ago.. she like you was intelligent and self aware she also used drugs alcohol like you. she had also got a DUI and boy this really sent her in to a depression She could not believe she went to jail.. It actually turned out to be a expensive blessing.. Once she started attending the court orders program It really opened her eyes to what all the parting was doing to her, after hearing others stories it really changed her whole perspective on the party scene.. before she died she was at her healthiest emotionally and physically Thanks to the reality check.. My advice for you would be to dive into this sobriety into the court orders program head first with as much drive as you would use in school.. It can change your life in a way you could never imagined.. Blessings come in the most unusual ways.. I wish you well on your journey. lesa

[dominosarah]

Addiction has you in its grip now.  There is no more control.  You can turn your life around and make it better than it was.  Have you thought about any type of counseling?  Using is only a symptom of this addiction.  Keep talking to us as we are here to listen and help~

[VICourageous]

Hey you just Vent away..I would Highly Recommend some Support Groups at this point..My substances use started at 14..I am now 56 so this does get way out of control.It can take your mind, body and soul..Time to re-channel in with your Higher Power...Hey were you on here the other day???