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Will i be an addict for life?
Will I be an addict for life now or do i stop being one now im quitting codeine?
I'm not sure what you're talking about, I haven't messaged you saying anyuthing of the sort, in fact, I don't recall messaging you at all?
Im not having that much codeine now not as much as i would.
I need to take a break from look can you all pls stop nessaging asking me to stay ive made my mind up i need a break sorry.
I need to take a break from look can you all pls stop nessaging asking me to stay ive made my mind up i need a break sorry.
Hiya Sarah,
Thank you so very much for your comment n for being nice to me.
Lots of people have said 'it tirns on you.' Can i ask what you mean by that please?
I mean i think it may have done that the week i wasn't well n stressed out about money just before I told my mam everything but not sure. Because when i went through withdrawal i WANTED it n i mean really wanted it, thought of it all the time, reminiscing over the beginning n good times etc.
Evey xxx
Thank you so very much for your comment n for being nice to me.
Lots of people have said 'it tirns on you.' Can i ask what you mean by that please?
I mean i think it may have done that the week i wasn't well n stressed out about money just before I told my mam everything but not sure. Because when i went through withdrawal i WANTED it n i mean really wanted it, thought of it all the time, reminiscing over the beginning n good times etc.
Evey xxx
Hi Girl..Thanks for the PM..You just take it easy..I think nurseygirl came up with a great idea..Can you see about going to a Treatment Center..They will have you Focus on YOU and you only..You will not have to worry about a thing but getting better..OK..We DO CARE ABOUT YOU..No one is going to be mean..OK..Just think about what they said above me here..You do have a child too..You can stay with us for support also..Just think what your life will have to offer after you get off the meds..You can even join us to help a new one on here that might be walking in the shoes you are wearing..You can do it!! I know you can..We will Cheer for you all the Way. I am doing Cartwheels right now...
Bless You & Your family..
Bless You & Your family..
Honey, we're not judging you but rather trying to get THROUGH to you, and there's a BIG difference!!! We ONLY want to see you get well, as you simply CANNOT keep doing what you're doing. There's no easy way to say this, but it WILL either kill you, make you very very sick, or ruin your life, INCLUDUNG taking everything away that you love and cherish. That's an undisputable FACT.
Here's an honest question for you...you don't have to answer it here...but ponder it yourself, do you think with the amount of codeine you're taking that you are a safe and appropriate person to care for your young child? Think about that. If you knew someone else who was doing what you're doing, and they had a young child, would you be worried about that child? Answer yourself honestly. When you talk to yourself, you have no one to answer to, no one to impress or convince, so be honest with yourself about that.
Children's protective agencies get involved to intervene when children are at risk. They may NOT get involved in your case, but if they did, they would be 100% right to be concerned about the well being of your daughter. You are NOT making healthy decisions and choices, that's the bottom line. You are putting your OWN life and health at risk, so it goes without saying that others would be worried about your ability to make safe choices for her as well.
And NO.... that doesn't have a THING to do with who you are as a PERSON..not one single bit. It has to do with you being sick...addiction is an illness, and you're in deep. You're NOT a bad person. You absolutely HAVE to make changes to start moving forward with your recovery, or things will not end well. That's just a fact. It really is. You can only continue to do this for so long before it will catch up to you in some respect. It's very sad, but it's very true.
The GOOD news is, YOU have the power to change this. Sure, it will stink, it will be hard, you'll feel badly, both physically and mentally, but not forever. You'll be mad, sad, and sick, but that will pass. You CAN get back to a life without codeine, but you have to ONE.. acknowledge the difficult truth, that you are addicted, and that you have lost control. You don't have to do that here, but at some point, you have to admit it to yourself.
You also have to WANT to get better (which is obvious to me that you do). You cannot go on the way you are. Probably your biggest fear is losing your daughter, right? Well, if you CONTINUE to abuse codeine, that's a very real possibility. I KNOW you don't want that...so then decide that all of this back and forth is just DONE.
No more worrying about your parents, and what they say or do....no more staying focused on that you WANT to use an addictive substance that makes you feel good, because it will ruin your life. NO more worrying about what people say...it hits home and hurts because you're smart enough to know there's a lot of truth in what others' have said. NO more making excuses about why you "can't" do this and can't do that...find ways you CAN. You put a lot of time and effort and money into getting the codeine. If you put the same effort and work into recovery you will be successful.
Honestly, at this point, I think your best bet would be an intensive inpatient recovery program. They will both help you detox AND start the road to sobriety. Choose your life...not the codeine.
I say ALL of the above out of compassion, not criticism.
Here's an honest question for you...you don't have to answer it here...but ponder it yourself, do you think with the amount of codeine you're taking that you are a safe and appropriate person to care for your young child? Think about that. If you knew someone else who was doing what you're doing, and they had a young child, would you be worried about that child? Answer yourself honestly. When you talk to yourself, you have no one to answer to, no one to impress or convince, so be honest with yourself about that.
Children's protective agencies get involved to intervene when children are at risk. They may NOT get involved in your case, but if they did, they would be 100% right to be concerned about the well being of your daughter. You are NOT making healthy decisions and choices, that's the bottom line. You are putting your OWN life and health at risk, so it goes without saying that others would be worried about your ability to make safe choices for her as well.
And NO.... that doesn't have a THING to do with who you are as a PERSON..not one single bit. It has to do with you being sick...addiction is an illness, and you're in deep. You're NOT a bad person. You absolutely HAVE to make changes to start moving forward with your recovery, or things will not end well. That's just a fact. It really is. You can only continue to do this for so long before it will catch up to you in some respect. It's very sad, but it's very true.
The GOOD news is, YOU have the power to change this. Sure, it will stink, it will be hard, you'll feel badly, both physically and mentally, but not forever. You'll be mad, sad, and sick, but that will pass. You CAN get back to a life without codeine, but you have to ONE.. acknowledge the difficult truth, that you are addicted, and that you have lost control. You don't have to do that here, but at some point, you have to admit it to yourself.
You also have to WANT to get better (which is obvious to me that you do). You cannot go on the way you are. Probably your biggest fear is losing your daughter, right? Well, if you CONTINUE to abuse codeine, that's a very real possibility. I KNOW you don't want that...so then decide that all of this back and forth is just DONE.
No more worrying about your parents, and what they say or do....no more staying focused on that you WANT to use an addictive substance that makes you feel good, because it will ruin your life. NO more worrying about what people say...it hits home and hurts because you're smart enough to know there's a lot of truth in what others' have said. NO more making excuses about why you "can't" do this and can't do that...find ways you CAN. You put a lot of time and effort and money into getting the codeine. If you put the same effort and work into recovery you will be successful.
Honestly, at this point, I think your best bet would be an intensive inpatient recovery program. They will both help you detox AND start the road to sobriety. Choose your life...not the codeine.
I say ALL of the above out of compassion, not criticism.
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Take some deep breaths.......Dont worry about other people right now. You need to focus on you. You are what is important. I understand the hold the codeine has on you. Right now it is your best friend and your lover isnt it? It hides our emotional pain that we dont want to deal with and then it turns on you which it is doing now. I know you are afraid, we all were but getting off these pills and facing your fears isnt nearly as painful as continuing on this path. I am a dual addict in recovery. I am okay with that as i have learned so much about me. With this addiction you have to surrender to win. You can do this........
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