I have had this happend to me twice in my hay-days with oxys. I went crazy once and snorted 320mg in a day. Then I did a half a$$ taper cause i was running out of my script. I was completly out with in a week. I had nothing to really taper with except a few vics and Lyrica. When I ran out,i had vertualy no w/ds, or very mild. And then it happened again the next month. After coming off of 320mg,I thought I would be asuming the fetal posistion a for a week. I thought I was special.
Then the last time, before oxys were finaly relieved from my life, I tried to taper off the oxys to vics. I couldnt take the step down this time.I was going crazy, I had a huge anxiety attack and ended up in the ER for some ativan. I thought I was mentaly going insane, I couldnt sit, I could walk around, I felt like I didnt belong in my own skin, it was the wierdest, most uncomfortable feeling in my life.
I think after six months of the oxy use, I crossed some imaginary line where body now needed the heavy opaites to feel any normality. I couldnt gently taper anymore with a less powerful drug.
Now that I am off the oxys and on the patch, I find myself seeking and missing that euphoric high/feeling. I thought at first, it was just getting used to the patch and coming off the high doses of oxys. Its been three weeks, it has gotten better, but I still miss the feeling. And I am not about to mess around with fentanyl and cheat on my dose and face the worse possible w/d's in my life. At least I have the fear of God in me.
I always wonder about this with people who switch to suboxone. Sure, they dont have the addicitve behavior anymore, but how do they get by without that "high" that your body is programmed to need now. I know my sister who is also an addict, tried sub, and ended back on meth as she couldnt take life without the opiate high working in her. I think I had just reached that line in my addiction and barely crossed it. (where I HAD to have that opiate high) and then I got away from my DOC and am now getting used to not having it.
I hope that last paragraph makes sense, its like you reach a certain point, where you body now HAS to have the opitiates or you mentaly crash and am incompacitated without it. I think if you have been there,you understand what I am talking about. I think I touched that place breifly and am now trying to recoil from it and get back to normal.
Braxtol, you keep messing with that stuff, it WILL take you over so fast, you'll never know what hit you. Just becuase your not in w/d's, doesnt mean your blessed or special.Its not a ticket to continue playing cuase you think your immune now to w/d's or something. Its not like youve crossed some magical line now and dont have to pay the piper. It's out there waiting for you. Just trying to suck you in a little deeper, get its fangs in you good and deep. Then it will rare its ugly head and you'll be looking back at today wondering what the hell happened and how things got this way. Stop while you still can. How dose a maintance drug plan sound for the rest of your life? Maybe suboxone at $400.00 a month or having to get to the meth clinic everyday or face w/d again? (plus the cost) Read these stories and posting. Im sure you'll see what your future has in store for you. We just dont want to see you have to go through more misery then you have to.
wishing you the best
we feel good for a while..especially if the drug of choice becomes stonger..like heroin...the high is there that u lost before..but this will also pass..and u will be chasing a high til kingdom come..and u wont ever quite get there..in limbo...aftercare and abstinence will work for u ...dont think there is a way to stay happy doing drugs,,dont nsee it
my last detox i ended up in icu, liver failure, it gets worse
have you even been to rehab or na?
is the way i came off them. usually ill use a lot the day before i stop. i gradually used less and less until i finally stopped, then popped a bunch of xanax and slept for like 17 hours. perhaps this did the trick. note to anyone trying to kick opiate addiction: this worked for me. towards the end use less and less, final day of use use a wee tiny bit and get through the day. sleep for a long time. wake up and feel ok. perhaps this mimics methadone or something.
a million times. but usually by now i'm curled in the fetal position wishing i had my mommy and a full body heating blanket. i feel absolutely normal and it's boggling my mind
Not trying to scare ya, but the W/D's usually get worse between day 2-4...so, give yourself til then...if not, consider yourself one of the lucky ones..
Good luck and keep us posted.
Good for you!
Maybe you ARE OK.
I have never been so lucky. WD & I are intimate friends.
Good luck!