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day 1 hydrocodone cold turkey
I'm so scared
You are doing great! As you have discovered, keeping your mind busy and forcing yourself to get up and do something makes a big difference. I know that when I sat around, I felt worse than if I made myself do something. Sometimes it really is mind over matter. I hated it when people told me that. I thought they didn't understand that I really couldn't do it. Well, I couldn't because I made my mind up I couldn't. I would give myself permission to sit around for a bit, get up and take a shower, do a chore, go to store, then sit for a bit, then get up again. It was the only way I could do it. You are not a mean mommy for not tending to your child the moment they needed something. Just tell them your not feeling well and you will get it for them in a minute. I too am sorry for your loss. I lost my mom 11 years ago, my step mom almost 3 years ago and my grandma who was like my mom a year and half ago. So no more mommies for me. I understand your pain. You ARE doing this. Keep on truckin.... you got it!
so glad you got out in the fresh air! you are doing great! and glad your hubby is helping you.....you can do it, just keep going and don't get down if you start to feel bad....just go with it...it will pass...keep it up!!
Yeah, I do think the tylenol is okay. And I'm so happy to hear hubby has stepped up. That's great news!
And just keep going, and keep your expectations for feeling better in check. You might experience some tough days, but if you know they might happen, that makes everything easier to handle. Don't fight how you're feeling, just kinda go with it. And allow yourself to feel not so great for a while. And when you're feeling better, you can start to think about aftercare. But one day at a time right now. :)
And just keep going, and keep your expectations for feeling better in check. You might experience some tough days, but if you know they might happen, that makes everything easier to handle. Don't fight how you're feeling, just kinda go with it. And allow yourself to feel not so great for a while. And when you're feeling better, you can start to think about aftercare. But one day at a time right now. :)
Day 2 been keeping busy. It snowed so me and little miss sissy have been running around for hours in the snow. At this point its just the habit of putting it in my mouth I think. I got some tylenol cold and flu and it seems to help me with my body aches. My legs are hurting a little but not to bad. Tummy seems to be fine. The less I think about it the less the symptoms seem to appear. Kinda mind control game. Had a long talk with my hubby last night and hes going to do all he can to help. I ate well and slept well. Honest the cold and flu helped. My hubby said ill with drawl from tylenol also so to just take 1-2 a day. You think that is ok
I hear SO much progress in you just in the last 8 hrs. You definitely CAN do this, girl. Yep, it's gonna be a little harder with so many family members around you that still take narcotics, but others have worked it out and succeeded so you can, too.
Sorry about your Mom......she definitely would be PROUD of you. It is NOT too much to ask for some help for a wk or two from your hubby.....
Keep posting.....lots of love and support here.....
Blesssings to you~
Sorry about your Mom......she definitely would be PROUD of you. It is NOT too much to ask for some help for a wk or two from your hubby.....
Keep posting.....lots of love and support here.....
Blesssings to you~
Oh, and "old and wrinkled" - HIGHLY underrated! :) (I say be proud of those wrinkles, we earned them, right)?
I am SO happy to hear you talk like this. You are right. And I promise you, you can't be everything to everyone. It's not possible for any of us.
BUT you can be who you truly are, a special woman, a great Mom, IF You stop using and get on with it. Life is something you want to feel. You want to remember these times with your kids. I promise you, it will matter later. More than we could ever imagine right now.
And I agree with sarah - you're doing great so keep going. The time IS now and it's all about YOU getting better. Just imagine how wonderful you could be to your kids as a sober Mom (since it's obvious how much they matter to you now, imagine how you'd be with a clear head?). A Mom who's present. A Mom who remembers everything (yeah, the good AND the bad)... lol.. but that kind of stuff is priceless. Keep going, girl :)
BUT you can be who you truly are, a special woman, a great Mom, IF You stop using and get on with it. Life is something you want to feel. You want to remember these times with your kids. I promise you, it will matter later. More than we could ever imagine right now.
And I agree with sarah - you're doing great so keep going. The time IS now and it's all about YOU getting better. Just imagine how wonderful you could be to your kids as a sober Mom (since it's obvious how much they matter to you now, imagine how you'd be with a clear head?). A Mom who's present. A Mom who remembers everything (yeah, the good AND the bad)... lol.. but that kind of stuff is priceless. Keep going, girl :)
Wow I needed to hear that. Thank you. I do take up for him a lot my dad isn't to fond of him because I work my butt off trying to keep the house running smoothly. I dont have time for myself what so ever. My life is my kids. They are my world. I just want to be healthy for them I went threw alot with my mom being sick for 20 years. I dropped out of school and home schooled so I could monitor her at home. And now that she is gone I thought these are doing nothing but killing my liver so I want off for myself yea but for my babies. I want them to see me old and wrinkled lol. I feel a little better I took a bath and as I type jumping on trampoline with the kids lol. Of course taking a break to type. I have to push threw this
STOP making excuses for your hubby. What you're going through right now is a huge deal. And he's a grown up - he can make his OWN dinner. Honestly!
OK but more importantly, GOOD FOR YOU for quitting. Don't envy his drug use right now. It's NOT a good place to be, and we know that, right? Hopefully you''ll be able to get him to quit by setting an example. Letting him see how much better life is off the pills (and it is) and maybe he'll follow in your footsteps. But for now? It's about taking care of YOU. Marriage is 50/50 so let him step up. It's his responsibility to do so too.
OK but more importantly, GOOD FOR YOU for quitting. Don't envy his drug use right now. It's NOT a good place to be, and we know that, right? Hopefully you''ll be able to get him to quit by setting an example. Letting him see how much better life is off the pills (and it is) and maybe he'll follow in your footsteps. But for now? It's about taking care of YOU. Marriage is 50/50 so let him step up. It's his responsibility to do so too.
And about my family well I don't talk to dad about it much because he two has metal from his fingers up to shoulder he's been on 3 10s for 25 years hes so strong never takes more than what he needs. He toughs it out. As for my brothers one is to good to talk to me and the other has never been to the Dr and would steal mine. He's got a bad addiction its really bad. 40 living at home will steel anything from anyone. I put midol in my bottle once and he took them thinking they where generic its not funny but later he said " his tummy was CRAMPING real bad" lol ok ya its funny. But he will take anything just to get high. Mine was to get relief but honest nothing advil wouldnt take care of I'm not sure though I've never gone a day with out mine. Didnt take more than 4 a day what Dr said but after 10 years this is rough on me ya know
He's not understanding what I'm really feeling. And tech I need them I just dont want them anymore. I have severed nerves in my back which causes my legs to give out but I take four a day which prob only need 2 but they are there and ill take the 4 ya know. He has been on his 5 years. He's a paramedic and has bad back pain from lifting heavy patients he also had shoulder surgery that causes him issues so yea he needs them. We are usually ok with our routine he really does love me but just thinks I need to not be such a,baby about it. I don't think he really knows how I'm feeling. He leaves for work tomorrow and won't be Home 4 days he sleeps at the station which is hard on him because he gets a call at anytime so I do understand he's tired but a week or two is all I'm asking from him is that to much?
Ah Hun, I'm so sorry about your Mom. I have lost both my parents too, at age 24. Have you sought counseling for this? Dealing with your sadness?
It's certainly not a must, but can help. And help with your addiction issues too.
Most all of us have been where you are right now. Scared. Post a lot, it's so helpful to have people that have gone through it and know how it feels to help and talk to at this stage.
Tell us about your hubby. His reasons for pain pills. Will he help you? Do you have any close friends or siblings you could talk to?
The physical will pass. Everyone is different, but day 3 seems the worse, then it starts getting better. And everyday better than that. Promise.
Hugs
It's certainly not a must, but can help. And help with your addiction issues too.
Most all of us have been where you are right now. Scared. Post a lot, it's so helpful to have people that have gone through it and know how it feels to help and talk to at this stage.
Tell us about your hubby. His reasons for pain pills. Will he help you? Do you have any close friends or siblings you could talk to?
The physical will pass. Everyone is different, but day 3 seems the worse, then it starts getting better. And everyday better than that. Promise.
Hugs
oh i'm sorry...that has to be tough! can you talk to him and tell him you need help with the kids while you go thru this? at least so you can sleep some while you can. i hope it gets better for you....the emotions will come and go so try to hang in there. Does he plan on stopping pills too? Or does he legit need them right now?
Not feeling better just getting agitated tried to take a nap which never happens my husband thinks I should be awake 24/7 he's got his pills he can't do anything for the kids I have to do it all. He woke me up to ask if I could make him something to eat. Really!!!! I'm fuming right now
your emotions will be all over the place from time to time.....our brain is screaming for a pill...and it's trying to reset itself....it will take time and it does even out tho....just try to think positive thoughts and watch some comedy or a good movie...that always helped me....i lived on here and youtube and watched funny bloopers and videos on there.
did you get to walmart and get the supplies you wanted? did it help to get out?
did you get to walmart and get the supplies you wanted? did it help to get out?
that's a must...you have to get rid of ALL contacts and if any in your house you need to get rid of them.....if your hubby has some, then tell him to lock them up and not give you ANY or access to them....you have to be strong(er) if they are near you. If he is taking for legit pain and takes them as prescribed then he will help you. and yes, getting out of the house will be good for you! stay as active as possible, i know it's hard but just try. Let us know how you are doing ok? You can PM me if you have any questions.
I'm going to run to walmart get a few things sitting here in my chair Is not doing me any good. I just deleted all the people I knew that had any. They works borrow from me and never give back so thats when I yas to call my "peeps" but they are gone. Man I hope I'm ready for this. Ya I am. Gonna be wonderful. I hope Ahhhh see positive negative that's what I'm getting. I can't just leave it alone
well don't worry, your beauty is still there! and it will shine thru again (i'm sure still is) when you are feeling better and feel like doing more.....pills take so much away from us....it numbs us and we can't tell what it's doing to our bodies until they are gone.
and i would stay away from "junk" foods....high in sugar, etc.....eat protein when you can....and whey protein shakes are good source for energy....you can buy the powder at Publix or Walmart etc...mix with whatever, milk or juice or blend with fruit....also B12 liquid sublingual is good for energy and start a multivitamin if you don't take already. There are lots of tricks and help for feeling better but you just have to get "thru" it, can't go around or over or under it. And you CAN get thru it....millions of people have. Including myself :)
and i would stay away from "junk" foods....high in sugar, etc.....eat protein when you can....and whey protein shakes are good source for energy....you can buy the powder at Publix or Walmart etc...mix with whatever, milk or juice or blend with fruit....also B12 liquid sublingual is good for energy and start a multivitamin if you don't take already. There are lots of tricks and help for feeling better but you just have to get "thru" it, can't go around or over or under it. And you CAN get thru it....millions of people have. Including myself :)
I will get some liquids in me. Prob should stay away from pop. That's all I drink is pop. Junk food. Kids and husband get full course meals and I didn't eat cause I didn't want to soak up my meds. How stupid is that. I used to be beautiful and looked at myself this morning and balled. I stop doing my make up my hair is down to my butt and beautiful but just didn't give a CRAP to do it anymore. Man my eyes are wide open!!!! This is what's got to happen. Suffering. Jesus went threw way worse so I can do this for me!,
just tell your daughter that mommy has the flu bug and kids are resilient....i know how you feel...i didn't want to move off the couch, and didn't for a week except to do essentials....but it WILL get better and the more you move around with your kids, the quicker you will get your energy back. Try to force yourself to at least drink....if you get dehydrated, it will make this worse! Get some gatorade and soups.....water is good but you need electrolytes and minerals as well.....ensure or boost is great for meal replacement until you can eat. Just hang in there i promise it gets better!!
Thank you so much. Never new this many tears could come out at once. I'm so mad I let this happen. My daughter is 4 I told her 2 tmes just a min momma will get you breakfast this was at 8 I sat there 30 min before I got up. That's so mean. I can't believe I did that. I just don't want to move and the more I think about the physical the more my body heats up and I get mad. I need to chill that out now!!! I'm not thirsty and I'm not hungry. And I can't be that way because I'm only 100lbs as it is.
And as for your mom I'm so sorry. Mine was my best friend only one to go to besides my husband. It's hard cause he's prescribed them by his Dr and he keeps telling me to take one of his just one a day for a few days and it may be easier. Usually I'd already taken one to get my day started but havent since 3pm yesterday
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