Thanks for the answers. I will do what I can, but I am not sure I will go as far as NA/AA but I will look to my family for support.
Comments...it's normal. Just remorse and shame. Very common early recovery emotions. Advice..find some support. It will help more than you know. NA/AA meetings, therapy, group therapy. It will help immensely Aftercare is a must.
it will get better hi"s n lows all part of wds yea sounds like i know but im sneezin so hard i have to hold my head to stop alot of the pain