pills ruined everyting

[loracetsweety]

About 7 years ago I started dating my soulmate. 5 years ago we satrted eating painpills. It sarted every once n a while then everyday. We broke up this past november I. Broke his heart. Then we got back together he had gotten clean and I gotogether he was clean and I got him on them again I know it was his choice well anyways loracets were more important to me than he was which is not true now I am tring to quit it is day to I am so heart broken and sick I finally told my mom but I am so depressed how do I get over this I am so sick but cannot aford help I want my soulmate back to but I destryed that to

[loracetsweety]

well I still have not had a pill since I last posted thank u all for every bit of advice I have been helpful I called my ex didn't make me better but he is continuing to do what he needs to. I miss him hopefully one day we might find each other again. Again thank all of u. My body hurrts so bad I can't sleep but I know I will make it.  

[Violetblossom]

I agree 100% with Sherri.  You will get thru this.  I am on day 15, so two weeks...and each day it gets better.  I think the pills also ruined some of my marriage.  My husband and I have been like roomates b/c all I ever cared about was popping pills....to feel good.  And all of our intimacy went right out the window because percocet was my lover.  If your realationship is strong, it will be there after YOU get better.  But remember you have to get better for YOU!  Then, you will be able to think clearly and sort everything out with the man.  Good luck to you!!!!  Keep it up!!!  

[jamajessie]

First you need to get clean then work on getting your soul mate back. I know it's hard but you have to seek some kind of treatment. Na meetings are free. I know people there will be able to put you in a direction where you can get more help that may be free. I know how it is to don't know what you had till it is gone.


Good Luck

Jessica

[quitinoxys]

Well you have taken the first step by quiting the narcs. So just keep going and you can make it. As far as getting help you will get alot of advice from people on this forum as they have all been through it. You should look into NA and go to a meeting you would be suprised on how much help that it can be for you. So keep going and you will get your life back. I will pray for you.

[Sherri90049]

Oh sweety, hang in there! You are doing the right thing for YOU, which is to try to get off the stuff! When you get yourself whole again, you will see each other and then you'll know if there is any hope for you two or not. There is no such thing as never when two people really love each other. Don't beat yourself up with regret! It happens so often! I was given a prescription of Ultram and took the prescribed dose for 12 years. Impossible to stop taking! I had to switch to Subutex for 9 months before I could finally stop all together. That was 3 weeks ago. Just today I am starting to feel really good! You CAN do this! If you want it badly enough! The first four days were really rough: no sleep, terrible body aches, diarrhea, etc. But it passes. The next 2 weeks were full of so much fatigue and weakness! But I am coming out of it! It IS worth it! It might be the hardest thing you'll ever do, but you will be so strong afterwards! I didn't think I would make it, but I did! I promise you you can do this! Hopefully he'll be there after you get done, but everything will be ok even if he's not. You will be so much happier with the person you are after you're done with this! He will either be drawn back to you or someone else just as amazing will be! Good luck! Hang in there!