back home dealing with this day by day

[youngdude421]

i just wanteed to thank the couple ppl that responded to my post the other   night, my head went to a real dark place and haveing someone throw me their 2 cents really helped me. seeing my whole family was nice but i felt horrible seing all my little nieces and nephews thinking "their uncle is a junkie, his godfather is a junkie" i was holdin back tears when i was saying godby to everyone i know mybrother in law noticed cause after we shook hands he said "are u alright" i just said yes and he was like "you can always stopby our house your more than welcome you know that".  I did use since i got home but i dont really dont expect myself to stop using until i got into rehab. Seeing all my older successsful brothers really made me reaize how i have to change mylife inordr to be like them and get what i want, i cant even hold a paychck  i need some help b4 im able tto get a nice place of my own and all that good stuff. Seeing them with witht their expensive homes and hybrid cars and chevy tahoes was just a reminder of how i need to clean up my act.  idont know how im gonna get the balls to tell my dad and the rest of the fam has anyone ever had 2come clean with a parent or love one have any advice? this is turing into the heardest thing i ever had to do. i cant wait until im in a rehab and this is all behind me and i dont have to worry about getting arrested or the other things that go along with living in addiction land.

[GoingToMakeIt]

You are sounding stronger than you think. You have made a good choice. Just remember that recovery is a process. It doesn't end with rehab. Rehab is the beginning. Keep us posted and Good Luck!

[SHELLBELL79]

you seem really determind and stong about wanting to get clean and have a good life. u can do anything you want to. i know u can do it.

[addict200]

Since I had a horrible experience after I told my family I'm just wondering why you have to? Sorry I'm sure your family won't be like mine but I'm just wondering if you have to tell them?

[worried878]

I am happy 4 u...relief is coming soon...hang in there and do the best u can...be safe