battle has been lost!!!!

[maxe58]

first i wld like to thank all of those who offered advice and or kind words...it really meant alot....today however was my group counseling session and to my utter shock and dis belief dr mchatred anounces to the entire group that i had tried to taper myself "that i thought i was the dr" and he went around the room asking if any body else had tried that...well as u prob knw no one else had the balls to admit that they did..i mean come on if one is serious about being clean im sure they at least tried to cut back or dwn....any way after no one said anything he returned the attention back to me and had ea person give ME a reason why wat i did was a horrible idea and he continued to tell the group that with my way of thinking i am a "relapse waiting to happen"....i felt utterly humiliated...i had tears running dwn my face...i was shocked silent...i honestly cldnt say a word...he then asked me if i "had any more bright ideas"?....all i cld do was run from the room....i ran out of the building....i ran to my car and to my phn....right now i am waiting for my dealer to get here....i guess he was right!!! addiction is a big business...only my doc dealer never ever made me feel the way my so called recovery dr has....he wins...maybe i am just a junkie...in my defense i will say this:..i went in to the sub prgrm ready to renew my life...i had all the hopes of a new bride on her wedding day....i was getting married to life....my battle with addiction has been lost...i sit here defeated....he left a voice mail saying he feels i need to go to 3 subs a day!! that means i pay more ea week..as it is now i am cash pay and he gets 200 a week and the pharm gets almost 500 now he wants more? no he wins...i lose....well just heard that all to familiar horn blowing in my drive way....again thamk u all and to those who are lucky enough to beat this i wish u luck and plz knw sme of us are not as lucky and we envy u.......rebecca

[IwillDoThis]

Hey there - WHOA, wait up a minute.  What a scumbag doctor first of all and most importantly - why do you need to validate his projection?  People taper all the time, whatever works and humiliating you or making you feel bad certainly isn't going to help you on your path.  He was one stupid doctor honey - don't let him ruin everything.  YOU make the choice not to use every single day, there will be days when people do you wrong, there will be bad days when the easiest thing in the world is go give up.  Until you change your modus operandi here you will be caught up in the same old cycle.

Take your power back, don't let some idiotic doctor who has no more vested interested in you than a rock on the side of the road, make you believe you are less than EVER.  

We are all here, we will support you.  Cancel that call or drive away, please don't use.

[minn66]

That makes me so ANGRY! How dare he do something like that! He needs to be reported. That is inexcusable behavior. I know it is hard, Sweetie, but please don't let that horrible man influence you. He is supposed to be a professional and he did that!? Do not let that jerk get to you and win. I really hope he gets reported, by you or someone else. I truly believe in karma and he will get his. That is an outrage!

Hugs and prayers and support to you. We are here for you.

[NorthEast213]

Cancel that call.  Using is not going to solve a single thing.  What you went through was absolute BS and is everything that is wrong with some Doctors.... That being said... This is not the answer..   You are going to numb yourself for a short time and the overall issues will still be there.  Fight through this test and it will make you stronger.

Stick around and talk to us but most importantly cancel that call Maxe

[Bkitty]

I am utterly speechless,,,I cant believe your doctor did this to you today! I am soooo sorry! I'm not gonna lecture you,,you know what to do but I just wanted to say I am so sorry! (((hugs)))~Bkitty

[n8tiv_ndn]

hey....Hold up just for a second here......you were definitely treated unfairly ....being called out in front of a room full of "strangers" is NOT cool...the Doc was wrong to do that.....stop what you're thinking about "relapse waiting to happen" and don't use and prove that SOB wrong!!!!   You are just as strong as any of us ...I only got 9 days (this time) but they are 9 days.......clean........please reconsider hookin' up and get yourself together.......sending you peace and prayers............