checking in re :why now???

[yamaha1]

I wrote yesterday, or the day before, I can't remember, I really wanted to relapse. but I haven't! I did drive by my dad's house but kept on going... So I guess that's good.  I stayed busy yesterday and am feeling better today, not thinking about finding some pills as much. I really do need to find some kind of after care, the pro=gram I went to back in October was kind of sucky cause It was intensive outpatient for 6 weeks, then they let you loose right when you're gonna hit the wall.  Makes a lot of sense. Again, I just don't find AA/ NA meetings helpful ( actually, I NEVER had a problem with alcohol, don't even like the stuff, but I went to those meetings cause there are hardly any NA meetings around here)  Anyways, I still am having some cravings and trying to concentrate on working.  I have a load of paperwork to do and keep thinking If I had some pills I could get this S*** done.  Dammit

[overopiates]

Ur being really strong and for not going to ur dads for a couple is great.I dont do NA myself either.I cant afford expensive therapy etc but I found a place that goes on a sliding scale(Im a stay at home mom so we have1income).I c an addiction specialist&a therapist every week.Its actually a mental health facility&a very well knlwn rehab center(didnt go to rehab there but Im lucky to get to use some the the services and can afford it).Check around for something like that in ur area.U will be surprised at the services offered,how much they will help and if money is an issue most places work with u or refer u to a place that will.

[keke2013]

Your doing great yamaha. I also never drank and thought I never would have a problem with alcohol..but I did. I saw I was going down the same road again, only now I just switched my addiction. I stopped alcohol 2 weeks ago and it's been just as hard to stop..make sure you don't make the same mistake as I did. Keep up the good work and keep moving forward. I feel so much better and starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel..stay strong this weekend..keke

[minn66]

Hi, glad you didn't relapse! That is a major accomplishment, especially so early in recovery. I saw a thread on here a while back that talked about alternate programs to the traditional ones like AA and NA. There was one in particular that sounded really good but for the life of me I can't remember what it is called! Try doing a Google search on NA alternatives. Hopefully someone with a better memory than mine can give you some ideas.

Take care and great job :)

Minn

[dominosarah]

Those pills give us a false sense of security.  Keep yourself as busy as you can right now.  The cravings will pass.  The important thing here is you came to the forum and posted.  Using is not an option, working thru this is.