2 weeks today - why are things so bad?

[Jacqui805]

I don't understand this.  From day one on I couldn't wait until I got to this point.  I told myself everyday just to get through each day and that by today although I thought I'd not be myself, I'd feel appreciably better.  This cannot be good to be without sleep for this long.  I'm so dehydrated too.  I'm drinking all day.  The pain is ridiculous, but the anxiety is the absolute worst!!  At this point I literally don't' think I will be better.  I should be better by now I thought!!!!  What was the past two weeks for, just to get here?  If I had a hatchet in my head, I wouldn't see the point in stretching it out two weeks.  This doesn't seem any different.  It seems that this will not get better or go away.  I just don't understand, I'm so confused.  I'm so upset, disappointed, angry.  wtf?  Yes, some symptoms are gone entirely, some are decreased.  Doesn't matter if the biggest one is here.  It's like I pulled out two knives but still have the hatchet in my head.  You know?

[anotherfinemess1]

Hi Jaqui, I hope you're doing better by now.  To answer your question, I got some Ativan for sleep.  Also valerian root (herbal tea) and something called Calmes Forte from the health food store.  I remember sleeping 3 hours one night, and was soooo happy.  Then 4-5 hours, and then 5 or 6.  It gets better in little increments.
I ended up staying on the Ativan for almost a month, cause my anxiety was unrelenting (btw, I'd never had anxiety in my life before this).
I did, however, make a visit to my doctor for a blood workup, IV fluids, etc.  The dehydration is a big factor, as 'notmenow!' has mentioned.  Hope you're good.
Lisa

[notmenow!]

Sounds like you are suffering from PAWS (post acute withdrawal syndrome), as a nurse you should have been aware of the dangers of detox without medical supervision. Why cant you call your PCP and explain what you have been going through, You may be dehydrated but chances are that your electrolytes are off. and your iron is very low. At the very least you need your blood work done! There are many non narcotic meds available today that can help you get through, You may gave also developed (gad) if you dont see a dr soon you may develop syncope syndrome, Whats your blood pressure running. Clonidine .01mg will help you with the withdrawal syndrome. Good Luck

[ukwildcat]

I feel your pain!  Have been off since Dec 6th and still have some of the symptons you are talking about.  The main thing is the sleep and anxiety,  I'm like a nervous twit when i'm out in public sometimes.  But hang in there I have been feeling alittle better lately.

[toxictome]

Maybe it's time to get tha tphysical..Iam rootin gfor you and hope you can pull out of this FUNK and get some sleep.

Sending good thoughts and zzzzz's your way...
i hope you enjoyed your night out!!!!

[jim811]

Hi There J...

You're alot stronger than this...I already know that :-)  U hve great attitude and fearless ... very cool traits....

I PM'd u....

Peace,

Nick

[DENNI16]

you are not alone.

i quit vics and was in w/d for nine days and gave in.  but this suboxe is helping but you need to see another dr. tell him there are others.  these dr's do not know that much about this ****.  i am on 2mgs and i feel so bad.  i am going to stick to it because i have no other choice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
but I know it gets better.  are you sure your not having w/d from the ambien?  my aunt has been on sleeping pills for 6 years and she can not function OR SLEEP AT ALL without a taking a bunch.  she did not sleep for 7 days and they hospitalized her.  now the stupid dr's just have her on a cocktail of sleeing pills.  i really think that it might be the ambien they can be a b  itch.  i took valium for 3 days and had the worse w/d.
some of us can not handle this stuff.  ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

[flmagi]

LMAO, go for it Ibkleen.
Really, I feel bad for her too. Lack of sleep for that long terrifies me. I'd be taking the hammer to myself.

[IBKleen]

The heck with the sandman, I am going to knock her upside the head with a hammer...then she will sleep....LMAO I feel so bad for her.

[flmagi]

I think Jacqui went out with her Hubby. I hope so, maybe that will wear her down so she can get some sleep. Or maybe she's sleeping now. That would be good. We need to send the sandman to Jacqui.

[angel44240]

drink lots of Gatorade! :D.. that's what I did.. when you're dehydrated, it'll make you go crazy, mentally! (As if you didn't already know that.. lol)
You're body will take some time to adjust to regular sleep patterns and other things including your mind.. I woke up again at 3am this morning, went back to bed around 6am, thanks to the graces of Hydroxyzine! lol.. (it was prescribed to the kids for their allergies) I passed right out! (I only took 2 teaspoons, too!)
Have you tried sleep aids?

[shelly405]

Are you coughing at all or sneezing? Could you have a cold on top of detox?

[flmagi]

Your a nurse, do you think you are actually dehydrating? If so, you need to get to a Doctor asap. That could be causing your problems here and will just keep making things worse. Even if your drinking liquids, if they just keep getting eliminated from your body... you've got a problem. How about a trip to the ER?

[GoingToMakeIt]

Jacqui I don't know why this is so rough. I sent a PM.
Hang in there. Let's talk. Maybe we can figure something out to help you.

[addictedme]

I believe what your not getting is rem sleep ( deep sleep) I remember detoxing off heroin and oxys and I swore I didnt sleep at all but then I noticed that I"d have a program on tv and then it was a diff program,,I had dozed off but again I wasnt getting rem sleep. I just typed in lack of sleep and effects ,,the record for someone going with absolutely no sleep is 11 days. They went on to say that scientest claim you"d be dead if deprived of sleep for 12 to 13 days.Not getting the rem sleep is a problem though cause it effects your immune system among other things so I agree with the post suggesting that you see a dr. I"m sorry I havent followed your posts but if you dont mind my asking,,what is your physical problem ? Remember the one thing that everyone said " you will get better"

[Coolio Hernendez]

Be strong !!!!

Keep hanging on!!!!!!!

[Jacqui805]

I'm going out with my husband and some friends soon to dinner and a movie, I was lookin' forward to it all week, don't know how I'm gonna get through it, but I'm hoping it'll be a distraction.  I can't swim right now and I'm limited physically since I just stopped being bedbound last Nov.  Just tryin' to get some muscle tone back by livin' a little.  I haven't moved in yrs.

[Coolio Hernendez]

Coming off Suboxone last year was like that for me.

I ended up going to my daughters pool party, I had to be there and i felt like **** i was 2 weeks in and i thought i was gonna die. I even called the doctors emergncy line telling him that i was " dying".

Well i jumped in the pool and 1 hour later i felt fine and i never really felt that bad feeling again. They say swimming releases something in your brain that helps you deal.

Before you quit find a way to go swimming.

[Jacqui805]

I really didn't expect to feel perfect.  But it's got to be liveable, ya know.  I literally have not slept in two weeks, and I'm so dehydrated.  I can't even think straight with my heart pounding.  I will not survive without sleep much longer.  I'm seriously trying and all, but I just feel like I'm hangin' on a bar, and I just can't hang any more.  I gotta let go, I don't know what that means, but I gotta veg out because I have no more effort to watch the clock tryin' to get my each minute anymore.  I'm so exhausted, I just need to fall.  I really don't care where at this point, my arms are shakin' on the bar and they need to let go.

[Coolio Hernendez]

You are not alone.

I have read on here about people going thru same thing.

I have Lymes disease so when i quit the pill's i went thru w/d and then i had to go thru living with Lymes.

I am not sure why i keep pushing, but i do and i know it is for the best.

Some things are just" fact's" just the "way it is" and the fact is = you will not feel perfect for atleast 6 months.

[Jacqui805]

How am I gonna make another week without sleep?  These two weeks have turned me into a zombie that looks "dead-er".

[Jacqui805]

Lisa,
     For real, seriously, you went through the same thing?  I was on such a potent drug and a really large dose, for a long time, but I still didn't expect this.  I feel alone because no one went through the same thing, I really feel like this is it.

[anotherfinemess1]

I felt the same way you do;  I was downright angry that I didn't bounce right back after 2 or even 3 weeks.  The anxiety seemed to go on forever.  I felt cheated-  that I had made the effort, done the work, and was still suffering long past the point that "everyone else"  seemed to be over it.  But I'm here to tell you that it really does get better, and everyones' individual chemistry is different.  So please have faith in the process, even though it does seem interminable---  I know it's sounds like a cliche', but you really do 'get your life back'
Hugs,
Lisa

[Jacqui805]

No choices.  What can I do but lay here and take it?  Don't know what else to do.

[IBKleen]

Jacqui..what are your choices hun? What are you thinking?