cocaine

[scampy22]

I am addicted to cocaine, I need help, but have no money to get any

[gizzy32]

how long have you been using. im glad you have no money to buy any, no offense intended, but you need to get off this ****, it almost killed me twice. i used for 5 years and couldn't stop. do you want to stop? have you tried to stop?

[dove3053]

I would be happy to donate to this cause. Here is my advice. Having used it many years ago, I stopped for some reason, can't remember why. Since then I have never had the urge to use again. You could put and ounce in front of me and I would walk the other way.

By the way when you stop using it you will have money.

Dove

[scampy22]

I have not tried to stop, I use it about 3 times a week for the last 4 years, I tell myself I am going to quit, but then I don't, I hate doing it.  I have money for coke but not my bills or rehab, I have even stolen money from friends, I went to the emergency room 3 years ago on an overdose/heartattack went to doc, said they would help me find a rehab, they never followed through, nor did I I have ruined my life I had an awsome job making 15 dollars an hour and one day I just quit, to hungover from the night before, now only work 20 hrs a week at 10 an hour, my life is ruined

[Flutterby111]

I fyou think you need treatment, there are plenty of rehab centers out there.  I'm not sure about insurance coverage, or if you have any for that matter.  But I've heard of a Rule 25 law that you can get from a local government agency to get covered in a time of crisis for help in treatment.  Otherwise start by looking up NA meetings if you think that'll help.  Narcotics Anonymous is a great source of support and information.  Google it and look up times and locations in your area.  AND< I agree with Dove, you will have more money when you stop! :)

[gizzy32]

listen, you can do this, but it's not easy. take it from me, you need help and this forum is a good start. talk to us and we will support you and give you suggestions on how to quit. i was bleeding internally and i was still doing lines as i was cleaning up blood. it's a deadly drug and i know you can beat it. it destroyed my life too, but i am 3 months clean, there is hope. are you willing to seek help, if not rehab, then n/a meetings are a huge step.

[Flutterby111]

Your life is not ruined.  It is salvagable.  I've been there too.  It sucks.  Coming down off coke is horrible.  ANd it causes major depression...Bite the bullet and get professional help.  It WILL save your life.  But it's up to you to take the first step....you have to honey.  We're all here to talk and support you but ultimately you've got some very important decisions to make.  Get off that ****.  It's junk.  I've even done it and been a weekend user-which sucks too....waste of life.  

[dove3053]

Sweetheart, you may think you have ruined your life, but I look at it as a bump in the road. You have come to the right place. That's a start.

Dove

[gizzy32]

i hope your still around, by no means do we mean harm in our words, we are just concerned and know you will make the right decision. is your stomach in pain with the blood?

[kris123]

I got to the point that I would write bad checks!!  I got in trouble and had to take a class and was lucky not to get in trouble - i would use about the same - it is hard to get off it but gizzy is right - maybe it is better that you don't have money to buy it.  You can do it - i have been clean for a long time - if me and gizzy can do it you can - i am here and so are others!!  

[worried878]

If hangovers make you do the coke....stay away from them while you quit...hanovers are a trigger for many as you feel so bad...you can do this...keep posting

[scampy22]

I think this is a good start, I will be on each day with a honest report of my uses, I just feel that I am already 27 and Its to late, I went to law school and failed because I was doing lines in the bathroom on break

[gizzy32]

glad to see you come back. being honest is very important and you can do this, but there has to be a serious effort. it's not too late, im 32 and kind of starting over, i have just had to heal. i quit college with 3 months to go to become a golf pro so i gave up a lot also. staying up for 3 days straight then playing in tourneys got tough, but i have already joined the course and will play again in a month. you need to have some hope right now and know you can beat this.  i have a feeling you broke down, am i wrong. my god, your still so young and now is the time to stop. there is a wonderful life waiting for you.

[gizzy32]

i sent you an email. look at your message box. it should have a red dot

[kris123]

I myself was 27-28 when I started over - i was the same age - i knew it was time to something when i was up all night and got in a reck and couldn't walk for two months - i would to lines in my mom's bathroom and even would go in to public restrooms and did lines didn't matter where - you will make it all of us will support you - i have been there i know how hard it is - i did it gizzy did it and you can too :-)

[gizzy32]

kris you have done so well, 2 years off coke now right? it can be done

[toxictome]

Welcometo the forum. you have come to a great place for help and support. You need to make the decision to stop. We will be here for you...YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Good luck and keep posting!!!

[kris123]

Two years and a couple of weeks ago had the urge you guys did so well in helping me with that - I just had a major mood swing that week - the urge is gone it was really odd because it was the first in a long time!!

[worried878]

Hangovers  are a big trigger for many.....most quit drinking as well as their drugs..not all...i have a patient right now with a huge crater bed sore..she is 34...weird because when i turned her over I saw a tatoo on her hip and realized "this girl had a life"  I know people like this had a life but u get a bit distant sometimes in my profession...She is a veg state now with a feeding tube.....lives in a nursing home....Stroked out on Cocaine several years ago...thought it may apply here

[scampy22]

that put a scare into me
thanks,

So today is day one, hungover from last night, so don't have the urge to do any, I do have one problem I owe my dealer money, and I am afraid that when I meet with him to give him the money , I will get some, hopefully not.  Today I got off my *** and shoveled the driveway, I only work three days a week and lay in bed all day the other 4. I am back in bed now, but I got up and attempte to do something constructive. Thats all until tommarrow I think writing on here each day will help, I  can't beleive I am actually doing this online stuff, but I appreciate the support

[gizzy32]

have you ever thought about going to n/a meetings?

[scampy22]

i already broke, so now today is day one, ****

[gizzy32]

hey there, was hoping we would here from you again. listen, i know it's hard, but unless you get help for this it will continue. read some of my journals and tell me i don't know what this drug does, coke kills and your playing with fire. i don't want you to go through what i did. maybe it would help to read some of my journals and realize you may need help.

[scampy22]

Day Two, it's a start.

[newmanagment]

It is  a start, heck i am a 25 yr cocaine addict, and it is ALL one day at a time. Watch a movie, go to sleep , or wutever it takes to remove your mind from using. NA is a great way to talk it out, and if ya dont like to talk in front of others then LISTEN. you will pick up great tips on staying clean. This is just another chapter in your life if you let it be!! When you get clean work will come, money will come, and all the other stuff a clean life has to offer. Keep posting, we need people like ourselves to help keep us clean. We will be here to support you thru it all