Day 3

[chronicmistake]

It is the morning of day 3 for me and everything I imagined in my head never happened.  I only felt tired, nauseated, slight bowel issues and  insomnia.  I feel grateful to have got off so easy in regards to wd but wonder if I did not suffer through wd will I be more likely to relapse?  I pictured myself detoxing and then in the future looking back and never wanting to feel that way again.  I have no craving yet and I am grateful to finally not look to a medication to make it through everyday of my life.   My husband and I went to see my counselor yesterday and the first thing I did was make sure I had my medications in my purse.  Of course they were not there but it is such a habit. I will go to my next NA meetig Wed and spoke with someone at the IOP Program I want to get  into.  She wants me to call her Monday to make sure I am not in WD and then come in Tuesday to talk about the program and how much is costs.  Thank God I have insurance that covers drug treatment programs.

[jstntime]

Hey you,

I seriously don't think severity of wd symptoms has ANYTHING to do with relapse.  I've had it very bad before and still managed to relapse.  You should consider yourself fortunate to have gotten away as easliy as you have.  Don't over think this.

You are making all the right moves and you should be very proud of your progress thus far.  Officially, it's day 3 for me too!!!!  I can sure commiserate with the no sleep thing....UGGGGHHHH!!!!

Keep making the right steps.....You can do this!!!!!  (I hope THIS one didn't make you cry :)  )

You are doing great!!!

bob

[laurel453]

agree 100 % with Jstntime..

i can not say how many people have said that just by remembering those wds was enough to put them off the drugs for ever... Nah, It doesn't work this way. It didn't work that way the first time i quitted and relapsed after 4 months... it has not  worked for a lot of people either, otherwise, almost nobody would relapse !

But what does work is what you are doing by working on your recovery... going to counselling, Na meetings...way to go !! :)

[Punkinhead75]

Glad to hear you are taking positive steps in your recovery.  IOP and NA mtgs can be very educational and supportive.  I went through it too and I'm doing well today.  I love the  way our brains work.  We project bad about something which causes us to worry, get depressed, angry etc only to find that none of the stuff we projected came true.  Then we start all over again.  I think they call that insanity.  Half the time we don't even realize we do it.  I love seeing all the crazy stuff that goes on in my head.  I'm just grateful that today there is a way out without having to use.  Keep up the good work and let us know how you are doing.  Thanks!!!!!

[dominosarah]

You gotta get out of your head girl!!  The severity of the wd's has nothing to do with relapse.  Focus your attention on your recovery and do whatever you need to do to make you the No.1 priority~~~~sara

[chronicmistake]

I woke up this morning and cried.  This time they were tears of joy!  I know it is only a small feat but it is a start.  It is time to get on with my life and enjoy it, be present in every moment, smell the wind in the air and notice the things going on around me.  When  I was using I would feel so guilty for not truely being there for my husband.  I know my dog, who is my side kick, even noticed I was not truely happy and present.  I know I am the one that made this decision to get clean but it was a few of you, you know who you are, that pushed me and told me to "jump" and to "rip off that band aid".  Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am still in my early 30's and really wanted to have a baby but took precautions for years because I could never do that to my child.  I could not be that selfish and give birth to an addicted child.  Who knows maybe I will even adopt?  

[dominosarah]

Welcome back to life!!!  You are feeling again, how exciting!!  Now this is a nice positive upbeat post.....Stay with it now!!       sara

[jstntime]

"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if a blade of grass springing up in the fields has power to move you, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive . . ." ~ Eleonora Duse


Congrats Chronic.....nice to see you join the ranks of the living!!!!

bob